finally back home. and loving every minute of it. i've never been happier to see the lights of changi airport from the plane.

still hate china. if not even more.

gonna unpack and then sleep. haven't slept in the last 24 hours.

found free internet in the room. thank God. something for me to do. tv has NO english channel at all. at least the hotel yesterday had HBO and other english stuff.

there's close to zero english here. help.

tired. aching all over from skiing and climbing the darn great wall of china. 975 steps up. that makes 1950 steps, up and down. that's how many steps i climbed. as usual, i forget that i'm scared of heights when i'm climbing up. when i reached the top (more than 800m high) and looked down, i started to panic. coz i had no idea how i was going to get back down. 800m is not funny for someone who's terrified of heights! somehow i managed to walk back now, one step at a time, all 975 of them. going up seemed easier coz i had ice cream as a distraction. it's fantastic eating ice cream in winter coz it will never melt. hahaha.

2 more days. thursday, friday. then i'm coming back. yay. can't wait. but the days seem so long here. sun sets at 5pm. that's why the day seems so long. and plus i have to wake up so early everyday! aunties planning next year's family holiday already. seems like it's gonna be new zealand (and flying by SQ. THANK GOD). phew. enough of china already. heck, i don't even mind going to perth for the 5th time. anywhere but china. or else i will start thinking of an excuse to get myself out of it.

in beijing now. finally in a hotel up to my taste. terribly cold. hate the china people. they are the rudest people you will ever find. irritating describes them aptly. there were beggars at the airport.. tsktsk. and the peddlers on the streets swarm around you with their wares.

i'm homesick. i wanna go home.

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

bye bye...

don't feel no love... =(

2 words describe me right now: fucking pissed. have been ever since i woke up coz i have to go to the place i hate most tomorrow morning. angrily throwing clothes into the luggage. i don't even feel like packing. i'm hating every single second of it. I DON'T WANT TO GO!!!!! I DON'T WANT TO GO!!!! pffft. merry christmas? *rolls eyes* this is the worst christmas ever. i hate china i hate china i hate china!! *frowns*

Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas

Have yourself a merry little Christmas
Let your heart be light
From now on your troubles will be out of sight

Have yourself a merry little Christmas
Make the Yuletide gay
From now on your troubles will be miles away

Here we are as in olden days
Happy golden days
Faithful friends who are dear to us
They gather near to us once more

Through the years we all will be together and
If the fates allow
Hang a shining star upon the highest bow
And have yourself a merry little Christmas now

Faithful friends who are dear to us
They gather near to us once more

Through the years we all will be together and
If the fates allow
But 'til then we'll have to muddle through somehow
And have yourself a merry little Christmas night

i love this song... it's the kind of song you would play softly in the background while sitting by the fireplace. *grin*

i hate china. i hate china. i hate china. i hate china. i hate china. i hate china. i hate china. i hate china. i hate china. i hate china. i hate china. i hate china. i hate china. i hate china. i hate china. i hate china. i hate china. i hate china. i hate china. i hate china. i hate china. i hate china. i hate china. i hate china.

i'd rather get a high fever or break a hand or leg than to go to china. gggrrrr! leaving on saturday morning... i don't see how else i can get myself out of the trip. i'm still not packing. i really cannot be bothered. *yawn* this is one family trip i really don't mind missing. who cares if everyone else is going. read my lips: i don't care! coz i don't wanna go to china. hate it hate it hate it hate it HATE IT!!! with all that money i spent on winter clothes so far, i can buy that pair of ferragamo boots. who cares if i never even wear the boots. at least i will be happy.

why?

ain't that pretty? bf got it for me. *grin*

i'm so tired. town is in such chaos. there's people everywhere, irritating screaming kids, and the sight of the snaking taxi queues is enough to make you stand there in shock for the next 5 seconds. the trains are not much better. being squashed like sardines in a can is bad enough. then there are the smelly people with big frizzy (smelly) hair taking up unnecessary space. *rolls eyes*

i have this urge to go shopping right now. i really want to buy lots and lots and lots of stuff. but it's too hot to step out of the house and i know its going to be so crowded. i hate crowds. i love sales but i hate the crowds that come with it. i hate it that i have to squeeze through at least ten people before i get to the clothes rack, only to see a mess. tsk. how can anyone shop in such conditions?

i saw two pairs of absoultely gorgeous boots at ferragamo!!!! sigh. they are so pretty...

why is it that my friends are either married or talking about getting married? jerome is married (but he still denies it. haha why, jerome? why?) kaixin talked about getting married a couple of years ago. and now even queenie is talking about getting married in a couple of years.

haha ok so only these 3 are either married or talking about marriage. the rest are not. but still!

not that i don't want to get married. at least not yet. sure, i know what kind of wedding i want. i even know where i want to go for honeymoon! i don't need any wedding planner. haha every girl knows exactly how she wants her wedding to look like. i want a church wedding. every pew will have pretty white ribbons with red roses and baby's breath (baby's breath is a must!! i LOVE baby's breath! i'd rather receive a huge bouquet of baby's breath than any other kinds of flowers!) my wedding gift registry will be registered with tiffany and co. hahaha. i love things that come in little blue boxes with a silver ribbon. actually a beach wedding would be nice too. facing the ocean, with the perfect sunset as the backdrop. beautiful. wedding dinners are boring so i never really thought about that one. but if i have to throw a wedding dinner, i definitely want it to be the grandest ever. i want gold helium ballons (with little silver star-shaped ballons hanging down from the end) to be floating all over the ballroom. and... haha nope, not going to say anymore. what if someone else reads this and decides to do the same for their own wedding? that would be stealing my idea. no way am i going to let that happen!

it's unusual that i'm actually awake in the morning. haha ever since my exams have ended, i have never woken up in the morning, except to go to church. yet this morning i am so wide awake. amazing eh?

i miss my baby... he's been so busy with inter hall games ever since the end of exams. and all those trainings and matches leave the poor boy so drained and tired. i know he's too tired and too busy to meet me so i always go back to hall and stay, just to keep him company. but i only get to see him at night (only for that couple of hours before he falls asleep. haha), when all the activities have ended for the day. heh. better than nothing at all, i guess. coz if i didn't go back to hall, i wouldn't even see him at all! he definitely wouldn't have any energy left to make his way down to town to meet me. in more ways than one, i dislike the inter hall games. =)

after staying in hall for a whole year, it feels weird being back home permanently. i'm so used to having bf around me all the time, and now he's so terribly far away! it's like something's missing from my life. he used to be just a hug away and i could see him all the time but not now. *pouts*

supposed to meet him later but i guess he would still be sleeping. higher chance of me going to look for him than him being able to wake up by 12pm, given that he slept at 6 or 7am... that poor boy's so tired and sleep deprived. *hug hug* think i'll let him sleep on and not wake him up.

do you believe in retribution?

i believe that what goes around, comes around.

and so there are certain things which you see and you don't exactly like the whole idea of it but what can you do anyway? this is when you just shut your mouth, close your eyes and erase it from your memory. that way, you didn't see anything.

(but it's still very much an eyesore!)

went shopping for winter clothes yesterday. enjoyed the shopping bit but that still doesn't change how i feel about having to go to china. dreading it so much! argh. i leave on the 24th but i still haven't even taken out my suitcase to pack. normally, about two weeks before i leave i would have at least taken out the suitcase and started packing a little so that i would know if i'm missing out anything. not this time. i couldn't care less. mummy had to practically drag me to buy the winter clothes. odd right? coz when it comes to shopping, i'm always the first to go out. i never sulk on shopping trips but this was an exception.

i've decided to bring my laptop along so that i can watch my dvds. haha. i'm going to buy enough shows to last me that 8 days in beijing. either CSI season 1-5 or SATC season 1-6 should do the trick.

mummy wants me to go take the flu jab. i hate injections. needles freak me out. anyway i'm sick so i can't take the jab. don't know how i fell sick overnight. my nose is just about as red as rudolf's and my voice is low, husky and sexy. hahaha

beat this! haha!

kathy and me are definitely the most "nua" people you will ever find.

we met up just now, with the intention of clubbing. but by the time we got to liquid room, it was almost 2am. haha. then we spent another 10 minutes deciding if we ought to go upstairs or just stay downstairs at sound bar (liquid room closes at 3am). we weren't sure how much was the cover charge for liquid room so we asked terence to check it out for us. good ole' terence came back and told us we could go right up. hahahah. ain't that awesome? so we went right up and looked for my boyfriend who gave us a jug of vodka ribena. my boyfriend's the best. *grin* music was quite good... hip/hop... the usual stuff they play over at phuture. but guess what were we doing the whole time we were there?? we were just standing by the bar, chatting, soaking up the surroundings and amusing ourselves with a couple of malays who were break dancing on the floor space behind us. hahaha. beat that. we go to a club, get in free, get free drinks, and then just stand there and talk. music was good but we were just too much of a bum to dance. hahaha. after about an hour or so, it was closing time - time to go home. that hour was fun alright. hah. i definitely enjoyed myself. how often will you ever find a person who is just as bum as you are? i seriously don't think i can think of anyone else who will bother to meet me at 2am, and then go to a club to nua!! we are definitely quite the ultimate bummers. haha.

total expenditure for the night - $19 (taxi fare, to and fro)
spending an hour with your best friend - priceless!

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What Color Nail Polish Best Fits You?

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How Sexy Is Your Vibe?

You Have Your PhD in Men

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How Well Do You Understand Men?

You are a Great Girlfriend

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You Have Him Totally Hooked

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Some may complain about your diva ways, but you brush them off. You simply demand the best - and there's nothing wrong with that. Don't stomp on the little people too much though! You still need them to get to the top.

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Your Hat Personality Is A

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You Are Uptown

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NTU is getting more and more ridiculous under the new management. i bet all they ever think about now is how to make more money. first is was the increase of school fees. now it's the increase of hall fess. read the following letter.

REVISED ROOM RATES FOR ALL HALLS OF RESIDENCES

The University has sought input and views from student leaders reagarding the revision of rental rates given the widely-acknowledged disparity between single and double occupancy room rates as well as those charged by other universities. It was also noted that hall facilities have been progressively upgraded and improvements will continue to be carried out over time to enhance hall living.

After much consideration, the revised rental rates for the halls (aside from the new Hall 3 and new Hall 16) are from $180 to $240 for single rooms. There is little change for the double room rates, with just a maximum of $25 increase for three of the halls which have specially larger rooms. Please see table below for details.

For your information, the rates for the new Hall 3 and new Hall 16 will be $350 for single occupancy rooms, and $240 for double occupancy rooms.

All rate are heavily subsidized by the University. The rates for all existing halls will be effective from ! July 2006. The rates frot new Halls 3 and 16 will take effect from 1 January 2006.

Revised Rates (exsiting rates in brackets):
Halls 1 & 2
Single Room ($190) $260
Double Room ($155) No change

Halls 4, 5, & 6
Single Room ($175) $240
Double Room ($155) $180

Hall 7
Single Room ($175) $240
Double Room ($155) No change

Halls 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14 & 15
Single Room ($180) $240
Double Room ($160) No change

Replacement Hall 3 and Hall 16
Single Room $350
Double Room $240

tsk tsk tsk. can you believe them?? i'm going to take the letter apart, line by line, and rebutt every thing. haha this is going to be fun.

"widely-acknowledged disparity between single and double occupancy room rates as well as those charged by other universities"???? what other universities are there in singapore? there's only SMU and NUS. and only NUS has halls. NUS halls are more expensive for a reason. they are MUCH newer and nicer! i can perfectly understand if the new halls 3 and 16 are more expensive coz they have aircon and everything is all brand new. but increase the prices of old existing halls??? that is SO unjustified. anyhow, NUS is ten times nearer to town than NTU! of course it will be more expensive. same reason why houses in town is more expensive than houses in boon lay. they really ought to use their common sense! if SMU decides to built halls too, they will obviously charge way more than NUS. so is NTU going to increase hostel fees again by conveniently citing different rates charged by other universities? *rolls eyes*

"It was also noted that hall facilities have been progressively upgraded and improvements will continue to be carried out over time to enhance hall living". so they say. i've been staying in halls for the past 2 years and i don't see progressive improvements of any sort to enhance hall living. maybe they changed the bookshelves last sem. but they changed to something which look exactly like the previous one. whatever. the point i wanted to raise here was how come only the single rooms see an increase in room rates??? how come there is no change in double room rates (except for hall 4, 5, & 6)? if they say the price increase is the result of improvements of facilities in the halls, then shouldn't ALL the room rates be increased???? huh huh huh??? you mean the double room occupants wouldn't use the "new and improved" facilities??? if the upgrading is done only to the single rooms, then yeah, it's only fair that only the single room rates increase. but right now they are saying that the hall facilities are being upgraded. hall facilities means stuff like pantries, reading room, computer room, canteen, tv lounge etc. EVERYONE who stays in that hall will get to use it. WHY didn't the double room rates go up as well??? it's not being fair to those staying in the single rooms. why do they have to pay for those staying in the double rooms? if they only want to increase the single room rates, then fine, those staying in double rooms shouldn't be allowed to use the new facilites. it's only fair. right? i bet the admin knows that the majority of those staying in double rooms are foreigners (or should i say foreigners from poorer countries) and that they will not be able to afford the revised rates and that's why there is no change in the double room rates. so what if they are foreigners?? that doesn't mean they deserve discounts. if they cannot afford the new rates, then too bad. either they move out or they can go back to china, india or whatever third world country they come from. actually, the foreigners ought to pay more. you know why? because they are the ones using the facilites most of the time. they are always in the tv lounge and they always cook in the pantries. never mind that they use the facilites. but they stink up the whole place and leave it in such disarray that it is IMPOSSIBLE for anyone else to use it after they have left. (there was once when the whole floor of the tv lounge was covered with ants. i'm not kiddint you. it was gross. seeing the amount of ants on the floor was enough to give anyone the goosebumps. it was impossible not to walk through the room without stepping on an ant.) so at the end of the day, they are the only ones using it. isn't it only right that they ought to pay for the "new and improved" facilities too??

so much for "seeking input and views from student leaders". oh yeah, i'm sure they (the administration) did seek input alright. but they probably did not give second thoughts to what the student leaders might have to say. the letter said the university sought input and views. the letter didn't say take into consideration. all the admin had in mind was to raise the prices but they had to add in the line "The University has sought input and views from student leaders" to make themselves look democratic and correct. i know the new rates have nothing to do with me coz i'm moving out anyway but i just feel that this whole revised rate thing is ridiculous. the new administration seriously disgusts me.

i've been a real good girl lately... only taking buses and trains when i go out. but public transport makes me sick. having to squeeze with the peak hour crowd is one thing. dealing with the different kind of people around you is another thing.

last sat, when i was taking the train to town, a huge group of indian ladies boarded the train, saris and all. i'm quite sure you can imagine the result. whatever fragrance they used just knocked the wind out of me. i didn't mean to be rude but i couldn't breathe at all. had to get off at the next station. how inconsiderate of them.

and then there was another incident of an indian child who was screaming non stop throughout the whole journey from city hall to boon lay. you will never know how much i wanted to slap that kid. by the time i got off at boon lay, i had a terrible migraine. well done, screaming kid. but the parents deserve even more commendation for NOT being able to keep their own kid from screaming and for being OBLIVIOUS to the numourous angry glances thrown their way. (even the music from my ipod could not drown the screaming. imagine how irritaingly loud is that.)

well i'm sure it's just a coincidence that the people who seem have destroyed my otherwise pleasant journey this week all happened to be indians.

i just cooked my own lunch. it's surprisingly edible!

it just dawned on me that this is the first day i'm actually home in the afternoon. lazy bones getting to me... now that i'm home, i ought to start studying for my gmat. sigh.

hungryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!! very very very very hungry!!!!!!!!

baby baby baby baby!!! hurry finish mahjong!! dong nan xi bei. hong zhong, bai ban, fa cai. pong pong pong pong! then hua shang, zi mo!! gao!! steady bom bi bi!!

a thousand apologies for not uploading last sunday's photos yet. boyfriend uploaded the photos into his computer already. but i haven't been to hall much so i haven't uploaded the photos from his computer into shutterfly yet. so you all just have to wait. patience is a virtue. i'm helping you to cultivate a virtue. hahahah

JR just told me that he knows of someone who took 1 year to prepare for the GMAT test. *faint* and i'm only giving myself 1 month. surely it can't be that difficult??? 1 year???? don't freak me out! my test date is 27 jan 2006. i have just about exactly 1 month to prepare for it. (i'm still at page 1 of the book. hahahaha and the book is hidden under a pile of rubbish papers) page 1 of gmat book, and the only section of my resume which has been completed so far is personal particulars. how terribly productive of me. hah. (anyway, personal particulars is more than enough to apply for PA? eh?)

tired but can't seem to get to sleep. boyfriend playing mj. i want to play mj too! hey baby, gong xi fa cai, wan shi ru yi, long ma jing shen!!! hahaha. i miss my boyfriend so much!! haven't been seeing much of him. miss his company, miss his hugs and kisses, miss the attention i get from him. *sulk*

hungry. weird coz i ate alot for dinner. i think the urge for supper is becoming more of a habit than genuine hunger - the result of studying late during exams. tummy automatically becomes hungry at this time. very bad. i'm at home now... which means no supper. too lazy to go down to cook. besides, nel doesn't stay in PGP anymore and there's no more kuay chup. if i'm in hall, there will be my boyfriend (who will be definitely be feeling hungry too!!) and his supper khakis who will gladly go out for nasi lemak!!

hot and lazy sunday

i'm still trying to get my resume done. been at it since yesterday and all i've come up with is my personal particulars. flipped through the whole of classified's recruit and i couldn't find a job. let me rephrase: i couldn't find a job i want to do. there is no lack of jobs if i'm looking for computer engineering related jobs. in fact, there's plenty of those. starting pay is quite attractive too. but i don't want those kind of jobs!!! i realise how much i want to get my masters in financial engineering. that can be my passport into the banking & finance industry! if i can't get that masters then plan b: find a job. or else plan c? haha.

boyfriend mia-ed. it's sizzling hot outside, i don't even want to step out of the door. why wouldn't it rain?

i really have to sit down and study for my gmat test.

i have cognitive dissonance? hmmmm...

hahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!

ah! this is life. i've been spending the past few days doing pretty much nothing constructive. hahaha. i've been shopping, playing mahjong, doing nothing, sleeping, and bumming around at home and in hall. the most constructive thing i did the whole week was probably to register for my GMAT test. figured that i had better get that done and get a test date or else i will never be able to sit myself down to study.

i'm still dragging my feet on getting my masters application done. the thought of writing essays and filling up umpteem forms seems too taxing on my mind at the moment. don't feel like writing my resume either. not really keen on looking for a job too. *grin* there's still a million other things i wanna do. i wanna go for a holiday. (that china trip IS NOT counted as a holiday. as for as i'm concerned, it is not real. it's just going to be a really long nightmare and it will not exist in my memory.) i wanna go horse riding, i wanna go cycling, i wanna go snorkelling, i wanna go on a really looooooooooooooong holiday.

geez, time flies. it's already december. then it will be january and feburary and march. then i have to start packing and move house coz of renovation. then 6 months later must move back. packing and unpacking is such a chore. yuck. i bet half of next year will be spent moving in and out of houses. which means i have to pack and unpack and pack and unpack!! *faint* think i'm just gonna bring my clothes and shoes and bags. the rest of my rubbish will go to those storage rooms. hah.