THERE IS A MEGA ADIDAS SALE GOING ON AT SUNTEC AND I WANT TO GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHY DO I HAVE TO BE AT WORK????? THIS IS MOST MOST MOST MOST MOST IRRITATING!!!!!!!

Greek and Roman mythology is rather intriguing. How come I never bothered to read up on it before?

Decided I like Jazz. Its soothing. I wanna go shopping later. Maybe go buy a few CDs. Michael Buble's worth checking out.

Think think think. I have to come up with designs for my web project.. I'd rather be planning other stuff.. like a surprise party, or coming up with a presents list, or shopping for presents. How exciting!

Why did I bother making plans to go out tonight? Another spur of the moment thing and now I'm having 2nd thoughts about it. This morning was one of those days when I wake up and I felt real ambitious.. Feeling never lasts me through the the day. I run faster than the feeling. *yawn* Its a Garfield moment now... I just declared it.

... is it game over? was it already? would it have been? will it?

My cousin's friend's baby boy is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CUTE!!! He is SOOO the CUTEST!! *gush* He's like absolutely CHUBBY! You want to pinch his cheeks. And he's so cuddly! Now I've got baby drool all over me. But who's complaining! Mummy's right. Heh. I get an unusual glow when I'm around babies. The little baby boy made my day! Heh was so down with work but he so totally cheered up my day! *beaming*

Is it possible to sneak off early again? Hmm.. I don't like the people here. Maybe its only those around me. I don't like them. I miss my friends at Citi. Its so much more FUN FUN FUN there.

Follow your heart and your dreams... How often do people actually do that? The heart may not always be right. It's deceiving.

I broke my promise. Nel, chocolate, orange or strawberry? eh heh heh heh....

What's up with the tracks from Love Actually! Been hearing "Too Lost In You" and "The Trouble with Love" at least twice a day! I don't even play the soundtrack anymore. All I have to do is turn on the radio.. Heh don't need to be constantly reminded about the trouble with love. I know it all too well... I don't even need to be in love to be in trouble. *throws up hands in despair* Is there like a trouble repellent? I need it more than anyone else.

Gosh, those spa resorts look absolutely inviting... tempting... ahhh I want to go tooooooooooooo.... the rates are not that damaging either! For $1098++, I can get a 3D2N couple spa package to Bintan! And it comes with 3 spa sessions per person... a 1 bedroom suite... AWESOME!

I want to GOOOOOOOOO!!!!! Too bad I'm only planning a getaway for my parents.. part of Mummy's surprise birthday present. Haha though Mummy would want me to go along too so that I wouldn't mess around when they are not around.

*yawn* Can you believe I'm still doing those tests? I'm getting a headache.. and my eyes feel tired. This attachment is not very healthy.

Luke's leaving tonight... *shrugz* Doesn't bother me.. I've been less than friendly to him and I guess he's not used to it. He's never seen that side of me before and he's getting slightly paranoid and jumpy and over-sensitive. Worried about losing me? About time. Heh. Too bad, boy. Somethings you take for granted all your life and don't realise it till it's gone. It's over. Closed that chapter of my life. The End.

It's a new story now... and how will this one end? When will this end? Is it game over already? Haha can't be that fast right? Surely I'm more captivating than 3 weeks? Hahahaha *shrugz* Maybe it's better it ends now? When it's even too early to feel hurt.

Work is killing me. The lack of it, rather! I don't know what I'm supposed to do now! It's so pointless to come to work. So unproductive. So aimless. It's like rotting my day away. Wasting 8 hrs everyday. And I feel so tired at the end of the day, even though I didn't do anything. There's already not enough time for myself and I still have to waste the 8 hours everyday! I've got better things to do. Like a manicure and pedicure. And a shopping trip. 8/24... that's like one-third of the day! *rolls eyes* Unproductive and inefficient.

Should I msg my stranger? Haha gonna call him my stranger now. Quite appropriate. I hardly know him. "Hello stranger".... has a nice ring to it! *wink*

Shoot me. It's only 5:13pm. Got about another 45 more mins to kill! Hmm... feel like reading some thrashy novels! Been awhile since I last read. Funny me, only like to read during the exam period. Maybe I'll go buy some magazines and silly novels on the way home later! Haha think I know where all my money goes to... Food, transport, books, magazines, manis and pedis and the occasional drinks! *grin*

OH OH OH! I love the song on air now... "Give Me One Reason" -- Tracy Chapman. It's an oldie.. But I love it all the same!

My eyes are so gonna roll out and cry. Ouch.

champagnes, martinis, nel and me

Gosh, I was so impossibly penniless yesterday! It's not even funny! It's pathetic... the way me and nel were doing math the whole night! We were both so cashless. I even had to cash in 5 bucks so that I could draw out 30 bucks. and that pratically cleaned out my card. Available balance:$0. Told ya it wasn't funny!

Guess what us, the 2 most brilliant gals, did with the 30 bucks? We walked straight down to Tango's (at Holland V) and did a mental calculation of the drinks we could have. Haha with about 30 bucks, you would think not much. We started off with the intention of having only a drink each, bearing in mind that we were, erm, broke. Very very broke. So we ordered 1 strawberry magarita each. $7 X 2 + 15% extra charge = $16.10. So far so good. Champagne looked good. So did the lychee martini. Didn't help that we were sitting near the bar and we could see the drinks that were being prepared!... Went to draw out another $30 so that we could quench our thirst for champagne and martini. Hahaha after our 2nd drinks, we were hooked. 1 more lychee martini, 3 more champagnes and 1 cosmo found its way to our table. Hahaha. Wanna make a guess at our total bill? $114.81. *sheepish grin* And it was only 9:30pm when we left.

This is stupid. Absolutely absurd. Why don't I have leave to take! At least give me a decent 7 days right! I'm working 6 mths for them. If their employess are entitled to a minimum of 14 days annual leave, then why can't I get 7? Work 1 year get 14 days. Work 6 mths, get 7! SIMPLE! 14/2 = 7! NOT 0!! Someone should take this up to the Ministry of Manpower or whoever! We are employess of the company for this period of time. If we are expected to contribute to the company as proper employees, then why are we not entitled to the benefits of an employee? huh? huh? huh? NO FAIR! *angry* Doesn't make sense, whichever way you look at it. They say we are to think of ourselves as employess of the company and not look at ourselves as IA students. So? Give us the minimum leave then! I haven't even started on the pay yet. I'll be gracious and let that one pass. For now.

If they want us to behave like employess, then treat us like one! Fairly. Not only those areas that benefits them... like:

Maximum working hours -- when you work late, they say nothing. Not even a word of sympathy. Like working late is the most normal thing to be doing. But when you want to leave early for an appointment? NO. "I have to be fair to all. You can leave on the dot at 6 though." Wow. Leave on the dot at 6... and he makes it sound like a PRIVILEGE. *rolls eyes*
Minimum leisure -- "No MSN, Yahoo messenger or whatever during working hours.. blah blah blah. And how long is your lunch hour? 1 hour.. not TWO!". Lalala. Eat my dust.
Selfish ingrates. We do the work, they claim the credit from the top. They think IA students are slaves eh? Cheap labour. No wonder the school only allows 3rd students to go for attachement. By then, everyone will be 21. Legal age for everything. Can't sue them for abuse of child labour. Darn. Scheming. How irritating. But still! Doesn't mean we're 21 means they can do this to us! I think attachment is crap. I'm not even going to have anything (not even remotely close!) to do with computer engineering when I'm done with school. Why, then, do I have to put myself through the agony of doing this? 4 years studying computer engine is agonizing enough. Getting hands-on experience of the crap? Can I pass? Please?

Hahaha. "How can anyone get better at work! It's only BAD... or WORSE!"

Hahaha I'm listening to Class 95 now and they are having some singing competition... the gal can sing. Beautifully! The guy can't sing for nuts man! OH the 2nd guy can sing.. the 2nd gal cant. Haha it's hilarious, I tell you! I'm trying hard not to laugh out loud.

Ahhhhh its only 530... can die can die. My poor eyes are tired. I hope I don't end up looking like a hag at the end of IA! Dark eye rings and sallow skin. All the long hours in the aircon is dehydrating for my skin. And the lack of sun is unhealthy. My healthy bronze tan is turning into a sickly shade of pale skin. *whince*

I can't wait for next next wed. I wanna go drinking. Gosh, I sound like an alcoholic. Haha. Hmm.. is it possible to accidentally on purpose bump into the fling there? I know it can be arranged... hmmm I'll come up with something and work on it. Like maybe get Shawn to bring him down. *wink* Something's gotta give... something will work out. Forces of destiny. *grin*

There is a CoE (College of Enginnering) Tech Week coming up.. from 8-13 March. And us, IA students are supposedly entitled to a day off to attend this tech week thingy. But problem is, my supervisor didn't breathe a word of this to me! Only found out about it from Kai. (Eh Kai, seems like you're the only one who knows! I asked my other friend of mine and he was clueless about this too!!) Hmm... and apparently OPA sent out a letter to the companies informing them about letting us off. I think my sneaky sup prob hid the letter and crossed his fingers that we wouldn't find out! How horrid! How can he deny us the opportunity to attend those amazing seminars! BioMedical Imaging... Competitive Power Market... Biophotonics... and MORE! I mean, they are like WOW! And he's not thinking of letting us go! *humph* How dare he!

I just registered for 4 seminars... which conveniently falls on the 11 Mar and 12 Mar... Thursday and Friday. BEST! BEST! BEST! But I'm wondering if he will let me go for it. I mean, he has to right? I want to learn. Hahahha. LOOOOOOONG weekend! Hahaha then Wednesday and Friday can go drinking!!! whoo hooo! "Zipadee do dah... Zipadiday.. my oh my, what a wonderfull day! Plenty of sunshine coming my way! Zipadee do dah... Zipadiday!!"

I just got the MOST BRILLIANTLY AWESOME idea! I could go join The Bachelorette! Hahahahahaha I get to choose from all that hunks. Makes the search for my perfect guy less complicated. Least all the shortlisted ones are cute in someway. Haha

What do I want in my guy? Well, for starters, he must be a hunk. And a Christian. At least a 1.78m. Okay, maybe 1.76m. Toned, very well-built. I'm obsessed with abs and toned guys. Chisled features, big nice eyes (MUST!). Kissable lips. Oh! Has to be a good kisser tooo. Haha. This is the most important: Able to love me for the princess that I am, and not try and change me! Charming, caring, loving, romantic, witty, humourous (CANNOT BE BORING), maybe a bad streak in him? Has to smell good and yummy!! (Haha its weird, I know. But I find nice smelling guys more attractive!) Chemistry! That's a must be chemistry! He could be the most gorgeous guy but not like me. That would be MOST TRAGIC! Hmm.... what else? Wants to spoil me, pamper me. Love me yet not over protective. Not possessive. I still want my life, my own space and my friends! A couple should be dependent YET independent. That would be the most ideal. *grin*.

There! It's not such a tall order after all! Hahahahahaha. Understatement of the century? *wink*

If I don't kill time, it will kill me. It's so painfully agonizing. Time is passing sooooooo horridly slowly today!

Was just browsing through my past blog entries... gee, I AM full of crap! Hahaha. And, boy, do my feelings change fast! To think that I was so caught up with Luke! Ugh. The very thought of it disgusts me now! Can't believe that just a few weeks ago, I was whining about him and tolerating all that shit crap he's been giving me! Guess when I was stuck in the rut, I couldnt see the mess I was in! No wonder everyone was telling me to wake up and snap out of it. Hahaha

.... I'm hungry and bored. Want to eat my mouth-watering bacon egg melt sandwich. Now that the content freeze has really been imposed, there's nothing I can do. Supposed to look around for materials. I don't like to sit around office and do nothing. It's boring and dull. Rather have work to do! Now I can't even ICQ! *sigh* It's like sooooooooooo difficult to pass time now! I can only whine in here now to kill time.

I've got an aching neck. And an aching lower back. I want to go for a massage. And a manicure and pedicure. Its been almost a month! And my nails are long. And I don't wanna cut them myself. (gee, I sound like a spoilt brat!)

Its FRIDAY! YEAH! The week is too long. And the weekend is too short. It should be half half. Like maybe 4 working days and 3 "weekend days". What's the difference between 5 working days and 4 anyway! But 3 "weekend days" and 2 "weekend days" makes a whole world of difference! *yawn* I wanna laze in bed again. Haven't slept in for like the longest time! Only last weeek. When I was on MC. That was the BEST sleep I had in weeks! Poor ME!!!! Sleep-in deprived.

Now that I'm quite used to the working life, I don't think I can study anymore. My brain is in major inertia. Think. Even during school term it was in inertia! What more NOW! I should just go be a tai-tai. Wake up at a decent hour (say, 10 or 11)... then laze around abit before going for a facial or a massage. After which would be a shopping trip or a mahjong session. Or a tete-a-tete gossip session. And then there's the weekly manicure and pedicure. And dinners. And chilling out at pretty little clubs. And holidays by the beaches and shopping trips in Milan, Paris, New York, London. Ahhh.... c'est la vie! C'est la vie que je veux! Why isn't there a tai-tai degree? Tai-tai-ology... a degree in Exquisite Culture? I'll have to come up with something which sounds better. Hahaha. I'm living in my own little fantasy dream world... choosing to run away from reality.. reality hurts. too much.

It's only 11:05am. How am I going to pass the rest of the day! I'm stoning already... robotically typing.. not even thinking... Fun 'O' Rama's tmr.. hope the weather will be perfect. Not too much sun, and no rain. Just cool and cloudy and windy with the sun peeking from behind the clouds.. Hate it when its so hot and humid. Yucks.

Hmm.. I havn't gone shopping for a long time. Its about time to hit the shops. *grin* But I don't like to go to town on weekends. Too crowded. And after work, I'm too lazy to go anywhere but home and bum. How how how? Like that how! I barely have any time for myself. In need of a manicure and pedicure but I just can't find the time. I've got no plans from 7-10pm tmr. I'm going to be stranded in town! After church, the next appointment is at 10. What am I to do for the next 3 hours? Can I cancel the 10pm appointment? Hmm.. Do I want to? At the moment, yes. Maybe I'll change my mind again later. *shrugz* My tum tum is on the verge of bursting into a loud protesting growl.

*yawn* what a change... today's so peaceful. yesterday was such a crazy day at work. barely had time to catch my breadth! stupid content freeeze date got pushed again to 17th Feb, 5pm Houston time, which effectively meant 7am 18th Feb S'pore time. poor me, rushing to finish the bobo website. and then the server decided to screw up and i couldnt upload any documents. could only do the sites. oh well, just as well! haha

Lalalala I'm idling. And trying to look busy. ^_^ I want to bum and do nothing. Shopping. Coffee. People watch. laze in bed. *stretch* i feel like Garfield. Haha okay, I'm officially in the "Garfield Mood". *yawn*

I want to watch a movie. Lots of chick flicks coming up! I LOOOOVE chick flicks and sappy romatic love stories. *dreamy smile* Isn't it lovely to know that true love still exists? Who cares if its only in the movies?

Heh this is starting to be like my daily diary entry!! What started off as something for me to air my frustrations is slowly becoming the script for the next season of "Days of Our Lives". Ha. "Days of MY LIFE". I didn't even know that people are reading my blog. Yeah, I did give out the address to some of my friends, but I never expected them to continue reading it. =)

Notice something different about this entry? I'm actually writing with proper punctuation. Caps and all. Heh, see how long it will last. I will aim to write properly from now. Getting too lazy!

I'm starting to feel sleepy.... How to fill up entries for my logbook?? Can't write 1st person... Then how to write? 3rd person? HOW HOW HOW??? Heh my sup read the 1st few entries and he said he felt like he was reading Bridget Jones' Diary! Hahaha. Hmm.. not my fault! I wasn't sure how to write! Bleh.

i'm beginning to hate this attachment by the second. im being thrown shit every other day. i cant do my work becoz i have not the shittest idea how to. and when i ask my sodding supervisor, its just about as helpful as asking the wall. bleh. i hate this place. i really hate it! why do is it a must to go for attachment? its like a freakin almost free labour. im sick and yet i cant take MCs coz i have a dateline to meet. why am i selling myself? for just $700/mth?

NOW, they decided to freeze the sites for migration puporses. means i'm not allowed to create sites/upload files. thought that alas, i'll have a chance to breathe while they do their stuff for the next 3 weeks. but oh NO! things cant get worse. you think! he wants to see a mitigation and resolution plan!!! he still wants the project to go on as usual and that the original dateline cant be pushed back too far. some shit about "the customer doesn't care what shit you meet." for f***'s sake, he's the sodding customer!!! they want to freakin shut down the site, what do you expect me to do right! its not like its MY FAULT that they want to migrate the site. and the migration period just has to coincide with the time i planned to do coding and testing! perfect timimg. whatever. now he sent an email saying that time is running out and that he wants to see the mitigation plan ASAP. do i hate him or do i just HATE him?

im supposed to be broke. yet i just bought i-duno-what (and i probably dun even need them.) frm victoria's secrets. nel said something about champagne and strawberries and it being very cheap. compulsive shopping disorder? almost there! haha im working on it!

all these makes me wanna go drink champagne and strawberries! *slurp* (cant believe i can even think about drinking when my stomach's still churning!)

my fling... hmmm realised he's kinda fun. so he's is just playing with me eh? haha well done. no one plays with ME! well, he can be prepared to be messed around with! *evil grin* takes 2 to play the game anyway! hahaa silly nel. she said that it makes no difference, coz i'm also playing. bleh! yeah i like him a teeny weeny bit. that's bad! hahaha will have to keep that in check!

*yawn* i want my bed. curl up under the sheets. and just snuggle up. lovely! =) and a relaxing good massage to top it off. that's the best! like whipped cream and chocolate fudge on top of ice cream. (why does my stomach make a little somersault everytime i mention food? hmmm)

i'm hungry. but i daren't eat. might puke everything out. =( hate feeling sick. sux. worse, so sick still must work. (not like im doing any work now. but STILL!) how pathetic. for the umpteenth time, i want a bed and a massage. *sigh*

i wanna go on a holiday. get out of here for awhile. to..... aust? HK? bintan? europe? states? have the urge to go horseriding. =( havnt been on a holiday in a year! singapore is suffocating. ugh. mummy and daddy are thinking of migrating. to Perth. so does my other aunties and uncles. sure, i want to get out of here. but not Perth! if it has to be australia, i rather go mel or sydney!! Perth is too boring. guess i could live with horseriding and tanning everyday. that would be nice. but on the other hand, i don't want to leave. coz after all, here is still home. all my darling friends will be here. maybe they can all migrate, but leave 1 house here for the kids when we are back. think all the parents want to retire there. haha me and chung yee could fly there every weekend to visit! hee how relaxing. ahhhh just thinking about it makes me feel better already! am i a dreamer or am i just a dreamer? *lol*

puked out my mocha. milk makes me sick in the morning. and i conveniently forgot all abt it. feeling damn sick now. wanna curl up under my sheets and go to dreamland. zzzzzzzz. tummy's churning. sorry, tum tum! =( think im going to puke again. even though there probably isnt anything left to throw up.

why is it so warm in the office today? am i sick or what? kathy's like freezing and im baking. erm. obviously not right! given that im just next to her! =( shld i just go home? i want a massage NOW. shoulders are aching. a massage would be the best. sigh.

i'm so proud of myself! hah its official that i have no feelings whatsoever for luke anymore. marc just msged me, saying that he saw him having dinner with a gal. but i was like "oh really?" couldnt be bothered. not even upset. not angry. more like "what has it got to do with me!" bleh. hah its for real this time! i know myself. =)

LK's opening a prata shop and he invited marianne!! and she's going to bring me along!!!!!!! yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! isnt this the BEST news?!! no more monday blues! hahaa and a few moments ago, i wanted to declare today a non working day. *yawn*

office is pretty empty today... feel like just going off! catch a movie or something.... hee

*jumps up and down* yipee yipee yeah yeah yeah!!! *grin* im all in the weekend mode already! (actually i have been the whole week. hahaha guess its called the weekend hangover syndrome.) i wanna go home and bum! miss my bed. im sleep deprived! *yawn* too bad ive got a dinner function to attend later. =( so much for bumming at home. sigh. bed just has to wait awhile more.

im supposed to meet the fling tmr. should i cancel on him? heh anyway, dun think i can fit him into my schedule tmr. gonna catch the new uncut love actually (this is going to be my THIRD time catching it! *in love* ROFL) then got a birthday dinner to go to. hmm, i'll just wait and see if he msges me tmr or something.

i'm horrid. hopelessly horrid. horridly hopeless. pathetically broke, and yet i can still go shopping! *sheepish grin* well, the bag WAS such a steal!! its a MUST buy!!! only $9.90.. and its a cute little crocodile skin bag. hehe *innocent big eyes* i can use it for work. and clubbing. and weekends. and its cheap.

oh oh oh! i saw that warehouse skirt again!! its on SALE NOW!!! was $109, now only $79!!! *twinkling eyes* and i spotted another little black skirt, hehe a must buy toooo. its so gorgeous! (though i think the both of them are hardly appropriate for work. one's a little too short and the other's a little too sexy. too flimsy. hehe)

i cant believe i can wear size 8!! how depressing! i went frm a size 6 to a 8!!!! *sobz* i hope its just the cutting... tried on a size 6 denim skirt frm FCUK and it couldnt fit. *phew* haha im such a contradiction eh? sad that im a size 8 yet happy coz i can wear more stuff frm topshop, warehouse and phuture. and when i cldnt fit into the denim skirt frm FCUK, i was so relieved (that im not that fat) yet so sad (coz the denim skirt had unique pink designs on the back pockets).

heh everytime i wanna look for my boss to discuss my work, i cant find him. does it mean im just not fated to do my work? hmm... hehe

forbes.com is my daily read now. haha "FORBES.COM: HOME PAGE FOR THE WORLD'S BUSINESS LEADERS" hahaha great headstart eh *grin* yest it was martha on trial. today its Oracle wanting to buy over PeopleSoft. wow. interesting! i think im a business person. haha mergers and acquisitions interests me! who says im all shopping and manicures! haha

gee i would sure love a full body massage now... *stretch* im aching all over! need to hit the gym too... getting fat in all the wrong places! yikes.

*yawn* its such an indecent time to be awake! who was the monkey who said that working hours are from 9 to 6! why cant i start at 10 or something! bleh the last time i woke up at 730 was prob during my jc days! ugh

i miss school! really! i cant believe i'm saying it. but i reallllllyy DO!!!! least in school, the days end at 430. latest also 530. plus can skip lectures and tutorials arent that stressful. after that still can skip off to town for mani/pedi or shopping trips. or lunches and dinners with friends. and partying. sigh. now if i want to do all of the above i got to wait till the weekend! but when the weekend comes, i'm usually too tired to do anything. just wanna laze at home and sleeeeep. even after work, i dun feel like going out. feel so tired. *yawn* i hope i dun end up a wrinkly prune at the end of IA! yikes.

i want a shawl. im freezing! hmm where shld i go shopping later? City Hall? or Suntec? i wanna buy my bracelet tooo. =( hand feels weird after i lost it. it's my fav!! *sobz*should i get the other pair of shoes in beige? hehe i like the stacked wooden heels on it! nvm that i already got the dark red on right? *grin*

think i shant go for the b'day dinner tonight. see, at 1st she said she cant make it. then after i told her im not going, he msged me saying that she and my cuz is going. asked me to go too, now that they are all going. sigh. im in such a tight spot. and its all the brainless twit's fault! =( to go or not to go?

i dun like luke anymore. wasnt even the least excited when i saw him online. more like a dull feeling. didnt even feel like talking to him... all my replies were rather single syllable and i guess i wasnt sounding too enthusiastic. it was like: yes/no blah blah blah. just didnt want to talk to him.

work life is dulling me. seriously. i have no life! work, home, sleep, eat, sleep, wake and back to work again. how interesting. geez.

back to work. back to work. darn. weekend ended too soon man! didnt even feel like it was time to go back to work! im aching all over. prob frm too much mahjong and drinking games on sun. oops. hahaha im so scared of alcohol now! yikes. esp vodka unmixed. definitely no vodka lemon or vodka logan! haha i didnt want to drink vodka shots anymore for forfiets so we were just anyhow mixing it. vodka + lemon concentrate = absolutely most disgusting drink ever! (that was b4 we mixed vodka + red date logan drink.) tasted like insecticide! pui pui pui!