being sick is no fun at all. *sulk* i've been on mc since friday. my throat hurts terribly. sigh. couldn't sleep at all the whole weekend. each time i swallow anything, even my own saliva, i cringe and wince with pain. it's so painful i feel so helpless and i just end up sitting in bed, crying. poor little me! 3 nights of uneasy sleep was more than i could bear. went to the doctor's first thing on monday monrning to get painkillers and some drowsy medicine to knock me out. the medicine did its job real good! i slept the whole of yesterday and i can't feel any pain now. best. but this is the thing i don't like about painkillers: you don't know if they pain is really gone or it's just being temporarily being masked by the pills. like now... i don't know if my throat is really better or the pain is still there, only i can't feel it. but who cares. i can eat and sleep properly without tears! had so much for dinner yesterday coz i could finally swallow without pain.

on another note altogether, my mysterious stranger has been spotted online more often in the recent days!

i just happened to look at my msn list... there are only 3 guys from my "Friends" group who are online now. it's not interesting that there are 3 guys online. it's who the 3 guys are which made me take a double look...

1st one: the mysterious stranger.
2nd one: the accidental fling.
3rd one: the guy who used to like me but now has to watch me fall in love with his best friend.

star light, star bright...
first star i see tonight...
i wish i may, i wish i might,
have this wish i wish tonight!

and i miss you so... will you ever know?

i miss him so much, i'm quite beside myself. what's wrong with me!!

lost for words...

some spots cannot be completely erased... some things were just meant to be left the way it is... some things were never meant to be said?

do you believe in first love? is it true then that first love cannot and will not be forgetten?

i'm so so so tired. sigh.