I'm getting a headache frm all the staring at the computer screen! the site has too much words and i dun have the patience to go through them line by line. and im half frozen. and im sleepy. and tired. hee yest shopped online at victoria's secret. they got lots of pretty stuff! the tops, shoes, boots, slinky dresses, sexy undies, and slips and the list goes on! *gush* oh so pretty! i want them all! the only bad thing about online shopping is that i cant try them! sigh. how wld i know if it fits me! looks so good on them models. haha

time check: 11:07am. 1 hr and 43 more min.

oops got meeting..

YEAH! can go for lunch then go off! that means i can leave at 12!!!! how fantastic is that! and now is already 11:30. will print out some reading material then im done! phew. at least after the meeting, i know where i should be heading! else i'd still be clueless!

GONG XI FA CAI, WAN SHI RU YI, LONG MA JING SHEN, erm.. erm.. hmmm.... haha that's all i know. yeah yeah yeah! chinese new year is here!!! hee

but it seems all quiet here at the office. hmm... doesnt feel like chinese new year. not like at Citi.. they're going to have lou hei. humph. here's no fun! work work work work and MORE work! i'm so overwhelmed, i dun even know where to start! i know im supposed to be reading up the website i was given. but its so lack of information! im supposed to look but for structure and contents. but WHAT contents! the website is so lacking, content-wise!

im way tooo busy! ugh! got lots of work piled onto me from day 1 and it hasnt got any better since! ok, there were some nice and not too busy days. but those are a rarity!!! *sobz* and that stupid plan of mine decided to die and evaporate this morning! couldnt open it at all!! so i had to do the whole week's work all in 1 morning!!!

been skiving the whole afternoon! haha just came back frm ice cream trip to mcdonalds. yum yum. im so sleepy now. must be the office air. wasnt sleepy when i was walking just now.

1 hr 15 mins more to 6. *yawns* i'll just continue writing crap in here. havnt written for a long time. got not much of a life now. all i do is go to work, then head home and watch tv and sleep. and shopping on weekends. haha


oh yipee! its 530 already... 30 more mins to go... lalalala

was doing a quiz just now... and its amazingly accurate! check out what it said about me!

1. You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

2. In the process of courtship, the approach that would make you feel irresistable is patience, never give up on you.

3. The impression you would like to give to your lover is optimistic.

4. You don't like it when your partner is emotional and/or too moody; and you don't know how to please him/her.

5. The kind of relationship you would like to build with your partner is that both of you can talk about everything and anything, no secret is kept.

6. You care about the society and morality, you won't do anything wrong after marriage.

7. You think of marriage as a precious thing. Once you get married, you'll treasure it and your partner very much.

8. At this moment, you don't want to be tied down by a steady relationship, you just want to flirt around.

haha other than number 6, the rest are rather true! esp the last one. hahaha flirt around.... and the second one! hmmm

i wanna go home already! *yawn* today's supposed to be my pay day. hope i get full month's pay! haha whoopeee.

im such a skiver today! yikes! haha but it feels so normal. time check: 5:38pm. yeah. maybe i can leave early? not like im doing any work anyway! *grin*

cny is day after tmr. time for all the ang pows! *grin* think im going to have lots of money this mth! with my pay and my allowance and my ang pow and abit of money frm my temping last mth. lalala watch out, SHOPS!

zzzzzz alrighty. im going to pack real slowly. and when im done, it will be 6pm and then ciao! haha

ooohhh the cutest american guy was asking me for directions today! *gush* he was absolutely yummy! and he smelt wonderful tooo.... *sigh* too bad my cab came too quick. =(

whoopee! today's my 1st day at work! hee the morning was good.. rather slack. just briefings and meeting lots of people.

THEN with the afternoon, came LOTS of work! BAM! the work just hit me! gee more work than school! haha alrighty, gotta get back to doing my research... got to come up with my project plan by 3pm tmr! *groan*

can a day get any weirder than this?

does trouble have a magnetic attraction to me? sometimes i wonder! yesterday was such a bizzare day! with the weirdest of most mind whirling stuff happening.. too much in one day! how is it that some days are boring and some days are over eventful?

lets start with the early afternoon... was on the bus when this american guy started talking to me.. asked me about the prices of the handphones here and all that. new chat up line? then in the end he asked if i wanted to go for coffee sometime! whats up man! and being the stupid confused me at that point of time, i gave my number, thinking he wouldn't call. but he did. whatever. he's not important.

so i met eben for a movie. and when he appeared with that beautiful bouquet of roses, my jaw dropped! gee, i wasnt expecting flowers! the flowers were just so sweet and pretty!! gosh. anyway, here's the more bizzare part. he asked me to be his girlfriend. i know i shouldnt have, but i just burst out laughing. i couldn't help myself. seriously, i barely know him for 3 days! so what if we went to sch together for 10 years? i didnt know him then! this HAS got to be a joke right? he cant be serious! (though minghong said he told her he did think about it and it quite serious!. yeah right. i bet he DID think about it. for like, what? 10 seconds?! )

and then after that luke picked me up. (right, there goes my diamond and tiffany's...) we met and we talked. abt us. i want to believe what he said, coz it sounded good. all those reasons how he was so nonchalant because he didnt want to spoil the thing we had. and that someday he'd want to marry me and he didnt want to keep hurting me now else i'll hate him and then what we had will be gone. argh. it sounds so good right? but everyone thinks its crap and that i shouldnt believe him. only kai. she thinks i should follow my heart if i really believe what he said...

seriously, why do i even bother? *rolls eyes* ..... argh whatever!!!

i'm so fidgity.. so restless, so listless! really should be studying for my french coz exam's tmr! but i cant seem to sit down and do anything. i dun even know what i want to do! feels like something's missing from my life. maybe someone? at times i wish i had a boyfriend. yeah, being single has its perks. but it can get a tad too boring sometimes. i need someone to irritate me. haha want someone that will papmper me and listen to me whine, keep me company when i'm bored. i miss luke. damn.

I GET TO GO FOR MY ATTACHMENT!!!! received an email from the school (out of the blue) saying that i'm allowed to go ahead with my attachment for this sem! is this a MIRACLE or what! PRAISE GOD! this week has been full or miracles! God's wonders never cease! GOD is GOOD! i LOVE HIM! i

ts gonna be a great year!! i'm gonna be a really goood gal and a good christian from now on! now that i can go for my attachment... it calls for a shopping spree! pretty clothes! sexy heels! and whatnots!

no more school for the next 6 months! yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah! though this means i may not have time to meet up with you-know-who. coz with sch, my lessons only take up half the day and i'll be in hall. but why shld i sit around and wait for him right? we may not even meet! juliet's his best friend now... *rolls eyes* gee it was so tempting to get close to jason just to get back! but i got myself into enough mess already and i will not flirt around anymore just to get back at someone else. hee ain't i an angel? i still dun believe him and juliet are just best of friends. it's not possible. close friends too! like since when they were good friends man! but if that's the way justin says it is, then i just have to take his word for it, right? *shrugz* today is the "i don't like luke" day, so i dun exactly give a damn to what's going on with him.

i'm such a silly little girl... waited 6 whole mths for him to come back and what did i get? CRAP! why am i always getting crap from him! tsk tsk. how comforting to know that some things will NEVER change! it's been about 3 years now and i'm still getting crap. why, then, do i still like him? am i just silly or hopeless?

Utt's the most yummy-licious guy around.. after Rodrigo. *grin* I want him tooooooooo! He's more reachable than Rodrigo, if you ask me! But Darius just said Utt's gay! *wails* why!!!! He's awesomely gorgeous! *sigh* I wanna marry him!!

I'm so gonna kick Luke's ass! He's been back for the longest time and we havent met up! humph! what a twit. i suspect there's something going on between him and juliet... hmm... call it instinct or whatever you want. i just know!!

Yipee!! The New Year's here!!!

Hope this year will be a better one! With lots of surprises!

My verse for this year is Genesis 50:20 -- "You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives."

I'll work towards a 50/20 vision! Yeah!

bleh. i think i gave someone the wrong signal. okay, so i shouldn't have flirted at all... bbuut it was harmless flirting. like who doesnt do it right? oh well all i have to do now is play ice queen.

i'm such a couch potato!! yikes. been in front of the tv ever since i woke up. haha supposed to be studying for french exam man! its next week! ugh. yucks. i hate studying. i like french but dun wanna study. cable tv is addictive! they have endless programmes. haha i've been watching so much i know what is when!

gee its almost the end of the year. its fast! time really flies.. like zoom zoom zoom zoom whoosh! right. time for new year resolutions... again. haha here goes...

~mmm... new year new guy? *wink* rodrigo santoro would be nice! yummy.
~how abt i shld try to be a little more harworking? and i will not miss a class.
~definitely a closer walk with God! i'm drifting away AGAIN! =(
~oh! a hundred sit-ups a day! and i must go to the gym at least ONCE a week!! cant rem the last time i went to gym.

that should do it for now.

hahaha marianne and me did our own serendipity! hahahaha now all we have to do is wait....

Love Actually

Love Actually is whoa! its beautiful!!! i wanna watch it again! and again and again and again! Rodrigo Santoro is deliciously gorgeous! i found my dream guy! he's gorgeous, well built and he's 1.9m! *faint* i looooove him!

sheesh i tot i was over luke... lalalala but i'm hopelessly in love with him. tsk tsk! haha guess sometimes i'm just using my crush as a substitute for luke... tres mal.. its not good, i know. *grin*

confession time: i was going out till late the past few days just to make him jealous. ok not exactly jealous. he's not the jealous kind. out of spite maybe? wanted him to know that my life doesnt revolve around him alone! but no one deserves to be used as a substitute. so i will stop it this very moment! will not flirt around and give that guy the wrong impression... *innocent grin* why is it that i can never stay angry with luke for long? its like i can be really pissed off and irritated with him but then all he has to do is just talk to me and then i'll melt like ice cream in the sun and forgot that i'm supposed to be still fuming. goodness gracious. i'm positively hopeless. oh man i so hope he doesnt ever see this page! hahahaha but then again, he knows me so well, he probably already knew what i have been writing...

ooooh did i mention that there's this abosultely GORGEOUS guy in the show tooo?? sighz.. *dreamy smile* he's so delicous! he gets 10/10. i can just have him for breakfast, lunch and dinner forever!

got my results... it's crap. worse than before. ok this has got to be the WORST ever! *sobz* but that's not the end yet! the worst worst worst thing is that i dun have enough credits to qualify for my attachment! *wails* i so badly want to go for attachment coz i need this break away from school! i'm so drained now, i really cant go through 1 more sem! but guess what that stupid, irritating, horrid and absolutely unhelpful counseller of mine said?! he asked me to take a break frm school if i really need one! that toot is forever asking me to quit my course and do something else. yes i know i shld have never done computer engineering... it's like digging my own grave. especially since i know nuts about computers and electronics and whatever. but i DID pray about it when making my choice and this was the answer i got frm God. at least i think it was! if i'd listened to myself, i would have definitely tried for law! that is what i wanted to do for as long as i can remember! law was the top of the lists amongst the others. and engineering was not even on the list! what more COMPUTER engineering! *sigh* but if this was the path that God wanted me to take, why is everything not going well? alright, i shldnt just dwell on the bad. God was carrying me all these time. i wld never have made it through to 3rd yr without Him!

home alone. bored and hungry. and its all luke's fault! im feeling too lazy to go out. maybe if someone come pick me up i'll go. but take a bus/train/taxi out?! i'll pass...

feels weird being home all alone.. maybe i should have gone korea too? my 1 week rendezvous is not going as planned!!!! argh! WHY?! *sigh* see, that's why i dun like to plan stuff. coz things always dun go according to my plan and i'll get pissed.

things between me and queenie seem ok. keyword: seem. its not like before.. somehow i dun feel that our friendship is back to the same level as it was. something's missing. i duno what it is. trust? i suppose its the same as when a vase is broken, it will never look the same even though it may be fixed.. the cracks will still be there... *shrugz* guess i lost a good friend. but then no loss no gain.. i've got Nel! She's great! =) there's always that silver lining of the cloud. haha something like that.. cant remember how it goes. that hiccup with queenie made me realised that actually i have lots of good friend around me! just that i was too stuck to 1 friend that i didnt really notice the others around me.

french test was hilarious.. haha blatently copying!! tsktsk we are all so horrible. i dun even know y i ever wanted to do french! its insane. all those du, de, da, la, le, a, au, eu, aux blah blah. and everything i know must X2 coz got masculine and feminine. *faint* let's not even get started on the conjugation of verbs.

i totally dun understand LOTR. was watching the part 2 just now. finally survived the show and finished it! haha if not because i agreed to watch part 3 tmr, i wldnt even start on it! should i go centro on fri?... or shld i go to nel's friend's party? or should i go out with luke? so much for him promising to keep me company. *rolls eyes* today's already wed and its almost the end. i should have known.. lalalala im sooo sleepy... maybe i'll have an early night today!

je veux francais essai demain.. je ne comprends pas. je ne etudie pas francais! je veux dormir! hahaha i give up! if i write the whole thing in french it's going to take forever! i'm so sleepy but i have a french test tmr! sighz... kk i WILL start studying sometime soon.. oooh guess what! i think i have a new crush! love the eyes! big and nice! *grin* i'm dozing off... *yawnz*