did quite the unexpected today: i went for a run. it's been a long time since i last put on my running shoes. don't know why i did that but i just felt like i needed to clear my head abit. i was running so fast i almost felt somewhat detached from my body. my head was saying slow down but my legs seemed to have taken upon themselves to go faster. a million thoughts running through my head. i'm sorry i'm so selfish. i know i broke your heart and i'm sorry. i don't mean to treat you like that. i'm just not in a position to commit to anything.

looking back, i guess i've always had it good. all my boyfriends were very good. it's just me. i'm always the one screwing up. it's always the case of "right guy, wrong time". lots of people aroud me getting married... even girls my age. i look at them and i don't understand why or how they can get married so early. *shrugs*