you know what? i'm in some weird mood now. woebegone, downcast, melanchonic and all. i should just go to sleep. i want to sleep. curl up under the sheets and drift away on the clouds. sleep takes you away from this place. when you sleep, you don't think about anything. it's all happy thoughts. i'm such an escapist.

finally coming to my senses~

*sigh* i think i ought to start being serious with my studies. looking back, it just dawned on me that i have never given it my best shot. all the years that i've been in school. the past 15 years. i mean, my Os and As were purely miracles. thank God i had enough brains to get through with little work. but i know it could have been better if i had just bothered to put in that little bit more of effort. look at me! all play and no work at all.

in primary sch, i was whispering away while the teacher was teaching. and during exams, after i finished those sums, i would spend the rest of the time colouring all those little flowers on the exam paper. *shakes head* haha who would do that right, you think! all the little kids were busy stressing themselves out over the maths sums and there i was, giving colour to the flowers, cars and whatnots. refused to study for PSLE. told mummy no need to study. haha poor mummy had a difficult time just making me sit and read through my books at least once.

then secondary school. i was always writing little notes during class. never bothered to study too. only panicked just before Os. and i mean, really just. like 1 or 2 months before only the exams only. i looked at my prelims (think i had like 30 over points hahah) and i just panicked. asked mummy what am i supposed to do! that's when i started studying. thank God mummy was there. i really wouldn't have known what to do. she managed my time for me, drew up study timetables for me, listed down all i had to do.. all those past year papers and all. all i had to do was just follow and study. don't i have the most awesome mother? it's only right to say that my O levels is her doing. i would have never been able to shave off more than 20 points from my prelims without her. and God too, of course! for giving mummy the patience to deal with me. and the countless miracles.

but i never learnt my lesson. *sheepish grin* i did it again in JC. played my way through till the last minute and panicked again. yes, again. i did it again. you would think that anyone would have learnt their lesson right? nope. not me. i'm too stubborn for my own good. in more ways than one. so God and mummy comes to the rescue yet again. hence i managed to come out with pretty decent grades. sometimes, i think i'm almost testing God.

i never seem to learn my lesson. why can't i study? why can't i sit still? without sounding boastful, i think i'm pretty intelligent. i skip lessons. i don't do my work. i never study. and i can study for just a couple of months (from scratch. really. from zilch) just before the exams and still do well, given the amount of time i spent studying! so if i start earlier, i'd do even better right?

my grades in uni have been the worst ever. i've never seen such grades before. i've never seen an A ever since i left JC and Bs are few though sure. it was depressing at first but i'm getting immuned to it. which is a bad thing. i don't think it's got anything to do with the subjects. it's just me. i hardly study. while others are attending lectures and tutorials, i was skipping off to town for shopping, manicures & pedicures, coffee and silly whatnots. i thought i could get off with minimal study again but guess not. the grades i got are more than i deserve for the number of hours i put in though but not enough to get the grades i want. i'm horrible and greedy, ain't i? i want minimal effort, maximum results. well, who doesn't? i thought hey, it worked for me in secondary school and jc, it would work again now. i was wrong. but did i learn my lesson? nope. did not.

it's probably unfair to say this, but ever since mummy went back to work, my grades have been dropping. no one's there to push me to study. i know... i'm so old already. i ought to motivate myself to study and not be so reliant on mummy but... *shrugz*

and now it's supposedly my final year. if i don't study now, i'll never get the chance to do it again. this is the time that i should prove to myself right? i know, deep within myself, i can do it. it's just that i don't want to. it's such a waste, isn't it?

my missing java text

anyone seen my java text? i know someone borrowed from me but i can't rememember who. i can't seem to find it at home...

C'est tres Facade! D'accord? says:
remember to blog my name!
C'est tres Facade! D'accord? says:
i want at lines 5 lines
C'est tres Facade! D'accord? says:
lol

hahaha there you go, shawn! i blogged your name and gave you 6 lines. *grin*

i need a hall. i really do. can't go on missing lessons like that! moreoever, tutorials and labs start this week.. so will my FYP! it's really not economical for me to go to school sometimes! i spend like almost an hour travelling to school just for an hour's lecture then i take another hour to get home. ratio of travelling time to time spent in school is 2:1!!!

why is it so difficult to get a hall!! GGGRRR!!! just kick those china students and those over zealous people with too many ECA points out and i'll have a room. these people have nothing better to do, i swear! how can anyone (normal) accumulate over 80 eca points! do they have no life outside school???!!!! geez!! what do they do? spend 24/7 in school buried under all those activities? they really are spoiling the market for ECA points! tsk. somebody should put a cap on the number of eca points a student can have and anything above that will be "donated" to us students without any points. i mean, if these people go round taking all the points, what points will be left for us, RIGHT?!! tsktsk.

did i just put this issue in a different perspective for you? are you able to see the previously blurred light at the end of the tunnel now? good. now you see my point of view. perfect. i just have to get the people up there to see my point of view too. then i will get my hall.

taxi drivers

right. taxi drivers. like everything else, there are the good ones, AND the horrid bad ones. i hate trying to get a cab on friday nights especially. that's because all of these stupid pesky irritating drivers refuse to stop. i really mean refuse to stop. they have NO passengers in their taxis (unless they have some passengers unseen to the human eye...) yet they will drive right past you as if you were invisible. why? all because they want to wait for call in customers and earn the extra $3.20. it's so irritating when you're in a hurrry and you see all these cabs whisking past you. *scowls* it's not that i don't want to call for a cab. it's no use either coz the lines are usually jammed up. either that or you'd have to wait for eternity for them to give you a cab. so either way, you'd still be stranded where you are, with frustration growing by the second!

on more than 1 occasion, i managed to hop on into the cab coz the traffic light was red and the cab was in front of me. and the taxi driver would blatently say he didn't want to pick me coz he was waiting for call ins. such audicity! can you belive it? since when were they allowed to choose customers? i used to let it pass but one particular taxi driver really irked me. THIS taxi driver insisted that it was only right to give priority to call in customers and ignore those on the streets. he had the cheek to tell me that he was contemplating accepting a call from raffles city to woodlands. (i was at fullerton and going home) and the whole journey he kept griping about how much money he would have made if he took that call. *glares* and this was a merc cab! you would think they would have more manners. i was soooooooo angry!! he was so mecenery! know what he said when i got in?

driver: you're lucky the call was to go to woodlands. if it was tampines, i would not have picked you up. coz then i would go to the airport. it's coz it was woodlands that's why i was thinking about it.
me: *rolls eyes* whatever. taxi drivers are not allowed to choose customers.
driver: no. call in customers should get priority because they are loyal...
me: *rolls eyes again* (making a mental note of the taxi license plate and looking for the TIBS customer service hotline to call)
driver: did you call for a cab? you should have.

(to which i gave my usual response as to how its impossible to get a cab even then. and i still maintained my stand that choosing customers is bad customer service. guess what the driver said..)

driver: too bad. it's like when you buy a first class ticket. of course the service would be better. but then sometimes, even when you want to buy a first class ticket, you can't get it. blah blah blah blah. (and he went on and on about how much money he would have made if he took that call as opposed to what he would earn by picking me up blah blah blah)

by this point, i was so furious with him for trying to insist that they, taxi drivers have every right to choose customers and that it IS good customer service for giving priority to call in customers. so street pick ups are not customers too??? *glares* and oh please. give me a break. you're just a taxi driver. stop comparing yourself to an airline!! calling for a taxi is hardly even comparable to booking a first class ticket!!

i used to be pretty pleased with the TIBS drivers coz they have always been pleasant (as compared to city cabs and comfort. comfort's are possibly one of the worst!) but this one has just changed my mind about TIBS. i definitely will call TIBS tomorrow! is this how they educate their drivers?? and aren't merc cab drivers supposed to be more polite?! i have a good mind to call in and complain about him. i didn't want to do it initially, coz i thought i might just break his rice bowl. but now, the more i think about it, the angrier i am! pffft!

i want to write about taxi drivers. *scowl* some of them are just so irritating. but not now. remind me!

love. what is it?

it's an absolute stranger. i don't recognise it. do you? can you? i wouldn't recognise it even if it was staring right back at me.

how would you know you're in love? what if you're accidentally in love and you don't know? how do you know it's love? what's in a relationship anyway? what is love? how do you know you love the person? what's true love? why do they call it true love? is there a false love? what's with all the love songs? will you ever find someone who loves you as much as you love him/her? what if it's a one-sided love? wouldn't that be the saddest thing ever? but it always happens eh? look around and you'll see. why can't it be simpler? would that make the world a better place? after all, love makes the world go round, right?

where is the love?
if you ask me, there ain't no love till you make it. hahahaha

ever watched Sleepless in Seattle? you should. it's the most beautiful movie ever!!! makes you believe in love. and that there's someone out there for you... someone which will give you that magical experience. someone you know you want to spend the rest of your life with the moment your eyes meet.. you'd really just know that IS the person. that movie just wipes away all your cynicism and skepticism you ever had about finding the one.

when you are attracted to someone, it just means that your subconscious is attracted to their subconscious, subconsciously. so what we think of as fate, is actually 2 neurosis knowing that they are a perfect match.

so if that is fate, is destiny "just something we invented because we cannot stand the fact that everything that happens is accidental"?

then are the sights we see really signs? or is it just a timely conincidence?

oooohh Utt's the most yummylicious... i so love him!! i'm hooked on MTV. hahaha they're playing the videos of all my fav songs!! i can just sit here glued to the tv. cable is bad. makes me a couch potato. but tv is like a necessary evil (like guys but i'll talk about that later).

i wished my skin would hurry up and finish peeling. i can't wear lots of clothes! *sobz* and i want to go clubbing... haven't been in awhile. :|

can't believe i spent the last 6 months working and i'm still broke. sometimes i really wonder where all my money went to! it just comes and goes. i never see it for long. think my money evaporates faster than water or alcohol.

i wanna be a model. hahaha yeah i like the high life. *grin*

alrighty i gotta get out of here else i'll never make it out of the house.

if i had only 1 wish...

i want a one way ticket to somewhere and maybe i'll never come back. i just decided i'm claustrophobic and suddenly i feel that everything's clamming down on me. get me out of here...

i need a holiday... a getaway... to relax and recharge. whisk me off for a tour around the world. a mega shopping spree. how nice it would be to be able to just shop without worrying about money. shopping is therapeutic, really! best ever. i can't describe the feeling i get when i go shopping. it's like... i get all light headed and happy... and i'm almost floating. *dreamy gaze* it takes me away from reality.

a few weeks by the beach would be nice too. like the Fiji Islands... ahh crystal clear waters, lined with dazzling fine white sand. mmmm that would be life! Cela serait la vie !

friendster's like a pandora's box. it holds a treasure chest full of deep dark secrets. hahaha it's true! friendster seems to have its way of unveiling stuff. like you open pandora's box and all those funny things come out of it... things you don't want. in the same way, poking your way through friendster, you'll stumble upon stuff too!

first week of school is always the most relaxed and most awesome! yesterday was half day and i don't have lessons today and tomorrow. thursday and friday is as good as half days.. i think i only have 2 or 3 lectures on thurs and friday.

i need to even out my tan again after my skin's done with peeling. it's so eeky! i don't even know what to do with it. haven't got this sub burnt for a long time. thought my skin's seasoned to the sun already but guess 3 days of sun proved too much for it this time.

what a bum day this is turning out to be.. *yawn* i woke up not too long ago. can you believe it? heh i'm starting to wake up later and later. i've bounced right back to my bumming ways and long sleeping hours. yay! this feels right! it has to be right. how come something so right ever feel wrong! *wink*

oh shuckadoo. i'm supposed to meet jason today. he's leaving tmr. mmmm now that i think about it, i vaguely remembering him calling me sometime in the afternoon when i was sleeping. sorry j! but you didn't tell me what time i was supposed to meet you yesterday! you said you'd tell me the time but you didn't! so it ain't entirely my fault that i was still sleeping when you called... hehe

~Seperate Lives~

You called me from the room in your hotel
All full of romance for someone that you met
And telling me how sorry you were leaving so soon
And that you miss me sometimes, when you're alone in your room
Do I feel lonely too?

You have no right to ask me how I feel
You have no right to speak to me so kind
I can't go on, just holding on to times
Now that we're living separate lives

Well I have learned to let you go
And if you've lost your love for me, will you never let it show?
There was no way to compromise
So now we're living separate lives

Ooh, so typical, love leads to isolation
So you build that wall, yes you build that wall
And you make it stronger

Well you have no right to ask me how I feel
You have no right to speak to me so kind

Someday I might find myself looking in your eyes
But for now we'll go on living separate lives
Yes for now we'll go on living separate lives

tsk why doens't anyone belive me when i say i really can't be bothered with that jerk anymore and that i'm seriously not affected at all!! i know i'm unusually calm about this whole thing. well, that's coz he doesn't mean anything to me at all and i never really like him at all. after all, i did know right from the start that he was seeing someone else so i didn't allow myself to fall for the things he did. he didn't give me a good vibe and that's that. i was just playing along all the while. yeah i did become slightly disoriented when it hit me that he wasn't going to be around anymore. but that disorientation lasted for all of a few hours in the morning a few days ago.

we all know who is the one which never fails to bring a smile to my face. and it ain't this guy. *wink*

i don't wanna know

Somebody said they saw you
the person you were kissin' wasn’t me
and I would never ask you
I just kept it to myself

I don’t wanna know
If your playin' me
Keep it on the low
Cause my heart can't take it anymore
And if your creepin'
please don’t let it show
Oh baby I don’t wanna know

I think about it when I hold you
When lookin' in your eyes I cant believe
I don’t need to know the truth
Baby keep it to yourself

Does she touch you better then me
Does she watch ya fall asleep
Does she show you love this way
And the things you do to me
If you are better off that way
Baby all that I can say
Is go on and do your thing and don’t come back to me

I know where your whereabouts
Or how your movin'
I know when you in the house
Or when your cruising
Its been proven
My love you abusing
I can't understand how a gal got you choosing
Undecided, I came and provided my undivided
But you came and denied it
Don’t even try it
I know when you lying
Don’t even do that
I know why you crying
Im not applyin' no pressure
Just wanna let you know
that I don’t wanna let you go
and I don’t wanna let you leave
Can't say I didn't let you breathe

stumbled upon something which left me seething with anger, recoiling in disgust and utterly speechless. they are like together now. i can't believe it. he's such a scum! i'm so angry now, words alone cannot describe how furious i am!!! *clenched fists* i need a punching bag. WHAT DID HE THINK HE WAS DOING!! WHAT DOES HE TAKE ME FOR!! *scowls* i mean, he was going out with her way way way way way before he even knew me. even way before last year! don't ask me how i know. i just know. nope i haven't spoken to him at all. neither did i ask anyone. these things just fell into pieces in front of me. (told ya i have a thing for these kind of stuff)

why even bother to spend so much time with me! this whole thing doesn't make any sense whichever way i look at it. and it's so abrupt. didn't see it coming at all! actually i knew all along that he was seeing another gal. it's just that i couldn't be bothered to ask him. did he actually believed that i was so dumb? duh! sometimes, what i don't say doesn't mean i don't know. it's really just coz i can't be bothered to talk about it. well if he was a little smarter, he would have smelt a rat coz i was asking him questions like so what will you do if you found out your girlfriend was seeing somebody else? and plus i was starting to be more aloof than i already was. more nonchalant too.. (well maybe he did sense it, that's why he went for the other gal. hahaha my coolness was more than he could handle)

tsk. guys. ppffft. just when you thought they couldn't get any dumber and be more of a jerk.

i want you to know all i see is you

mmm the medication's making me all groggy and sleepy. my head feels heavy and i feel immobilised. i've been slipping in and out of consciousness the whole afternoon. don't know what time it is, don't know what's happening. i only know i keep sleeping and my dreams come and go. they don't make any sense. some of them even seem so real. it isn't till i wake that i realised it was all just a dream. pinch me.

dreamt of him and that he just got his black subaru wrx sti. in my dream, he messaged me. somehow it seemed real then something jolted me and i woke up coz it didn't make sense. even in my dream i know he wouldn't message me.

my brain feels all cobwebby now. can't shake it away. sleep is good. it whisks you away to some faraway land where everything is perfect. white fluffy clouds. pink candy floss. little children on merry-go-rounds. i could sleep forever.

did you know...

women who're single tend to be among the most intelligent and highly educated people around, while the opposite is true with the men - the ones who remain single tend to be lowly educated and erm, IQ-challanged.

(got that from this month's issue of CLEO. hehe)

i have a funny feeling that j might have told reg what happened the last time at zouk. if he did, then it pretty much explains why the sudden change in reg's attitude. if he really did tell him (which i think it's highly possible, going by who he feels he owes his loyalty to), then i'm really asking for it.

haha don't know why but it seems so funny now. i ain't half as upset if his change in attitude is the result of what i said last time. i'll be more upset if it was coz of the other gal he was seeing before me. don't understand me? hahaha oh well, just live with it. i don't even understand myself!

today's a super pamper thyself day! got myself a mani, pedi and a massage. awesome! yay!!!

didn't go to work again coz i'm still feeling sick. i am really sick ok! coughing my lungs out. and my voice is still crackling. this morning i felt like i was going to die. everytime i stood up, i'd feel like crumbling to the ground. ugh. and the idea of being hospitalised suddenly seemed pretty appealing to me. i'm serious! i was contemplating fainting at a hospital just so that they would hospitalise me. haha i'm getting used to slacking around. well it's about time i gave myself a break coz school starts this monday.

marianne has the funniest alien theory! her take on jeginald's sudden change in attitude? while he was in KL, he got abducted by aliens and now it's his clone that's here now. not him but his evil twin. hahahaha okaaay... marianne and her alien theory. most possible explanation to date. hahahaha

having dinner with her really cheered me up lots. thanks babe! *hugz* the last time after "my perfect stranger", we had dinner at the same place too. (and you wanted to rush home to watch tv too!! TV ADDICT! i'm going to sign you up for TVA! hahah) that's our place eh? we're always eating there.

had the most sinful food today. chocolate cake for dessert just now and macdonalds for lunch. not the best for a bad throat but the chocolate was just so tempting! a little indulgence wouldn't hurt! after all the pampering i allowed myself today, what's a piece of chocolate cake! must end the night nicely right! *grin*

i feel so terrible. my tummy is hurting from all the coughing and i'm starting to feel feverish. my throat is no longer sore but i don't know why i'm still coughing so badly!

sun kissed!

didn't feel like going to work today. called in sick (well i really am sick. been having a sore throat ever since thurs and coughing my lungs out. ugh) and decided to work on evening out my tan i got yesterday. *grin* the sun was bright and sunny this morning but i didn't succeed in getting my lazy bum down to sentosa so i thought why not just tan at home, in the garden instead! hehe after all, it's the same sun that's shining over at sentosa too! why didn't i think of tanning at home before! it's so much more convenient. ran in like every 15mins or so to take a cold shower to diffuse off the heat before braving the sun again. the afternoon sun was horrendous man! if not for the fact that i had to even out my tan, i would have given up! the great pains a gal would go to for vanity! what a price to pay! subjecting my fair skin to the stinging rays of the sun. ouch! the result? well i'm all nicely bronzed now! *grin* thoughi think my back needs another session of tanning. i gave up at 4pm. it's too hot; i can't take it anymore!

*sigh*.... something's not right... he's been acting weird ever since he got back from KL with whoever he went with. =S i should never have agreed to do the roadshow. should have just gone for the KL trip... but what's the use of regretting now right?

anyhow, on a lighter note, i was out at sea the whole day. with my cousin, some other Citibank collegues and the yacht club people. went to watch the regatta organised by the Republic of Singapore Yacht Club. the regatta is like a sailing competition. i also didn't know what it was till today. hehe. it was fun on the yacht! with the sea spray and wind in my face, everything else just faded away. it's so so so relaxing just lying there on the deck. i felt so carefree and far away from reality! the gentle rocking of the yacht, coupled with the cool breeze soon lulled me to sleep. now i've got a golden tan! *grin* the sun was awesome! but i forgot to bring my bikini so i didn't exactly get a proper tan. wasn't expecting to be out at sea for so many hours. didn't know that we were going to watch the regatta; thought we were just going out for a short ride.

i took lots of photos but it needs to be resized before i post it here else too huge... so be patient. it's worth the wait! heh

my shopping exploits

*huge grin* yours truly hit the shops again. well not all the shops. i only did selective shopping today. could have spent a lot more! but to prevent overshopping, i gave myslef a time limit and told myself that i had to leave town by 9. ain't i a good gal? i know i have to curb this compulsive shopping disorder of mine but you can't expect me to give up shopping just like that, can you?! *pout* i'll try to cut it down bit by bit. i am trying... *innocent smile*
 
i needed to shop to snap out of the foul mood i was in so i decided i needed a new pair of black slipppers. well i ended up with a pair of jeans from french connection and 2 pairs of slippers. don't know why i need 2 pairs of slippers but 1 of them is pink and only cost me $19.90, so who cares! guess what. i didn't get black slippers at the end of the day. hahahaha. i still havent found them yet. mmm well a pair at kate spade's did catch my attention. it was hidden in a small little corner but it didn't escape my eyes! it's so retro-ish and it's so comfy too! only thing is that it costs a whooping $84! (even after discount! it's $120 before discount) that's insane, even for me. though i must admit it was very tempting. if it only looked like $120 i would have bought it. but it looks like one of those far east or heeren kinda slippers that you can get at $12-20. *sigh* so much for my black slippers.
 
hmmm still think my jeans cost a tad too much. don't remember ever paying so much for a pair of jeans before. haha on hindsight, i could have bought a pair of levi's jeans and a top for that amount. but me, being stubborn ol' me, refuse to own a pair of levi's. why? coz almost every gal on the street i see wears a pair of levi's! and i like to wear what others are wearing. i want my clothes to be different. *grin*
 
and i saw this pink tommy top. had to pull myself away from the display window so i wouldn't walk in to try it on. don't even ask how much. i've been a really good gal today. didn't even visit AX, zara, guess miss sixty and a whole lot more shops that i usually go to.  i'm so proud of myself. hahaha what good self-control i have today!

i caught The Woman in Black yesterday night. marianne had some complimentary tix. for the benefit of those who thought i meant Men in Black, The Woman in Black is a play. a really awesome one! oooh it's so scary! the story build up and the recorded sounds. (and some silly woman that kept screaming even when there was nothing! haha) the actors were so amazing! and the way the made use of the stage space was just so cleverly done! this is a MUST watch play! i shan't spoil the story by telling it here but you should really ought to catch it. it's fantastic!

at the end of the roadshow...

i'm left with no voice. *sobz*
 
finally its the end. i had fun but i'm also so so tired! by the end of the 2nd day, my throat was hurting so much. i thought i was going to lose my voice the next day! i kept popping lozenges and drinking water. surprisingly, my legs aren't even aching. i thought they would from standing the whole day!
 
so much for getting 40 applications! *sigh* i'm just not aggressive enough i guess. haha sales is definitely not for me! it's so demoralising, i tell you! what's so difficult with signing up for a credit card! *scowl*
 
i need to get out of the house today. else my mind will start wandering and i might get pissed the more i think about it.

and what did i say about candice? see! i'm always right! most unfortunately sometimes, if i may add. but i'm still right!
 
okay WAAAIIIIITT!!! hold on to your "i-told-you so"s first! i know you, you, you AND YOU can't wait! this is the moment that you've all been waiting for, RIGHT! to tell me that you knew all along that he's not a good guy. bleh! don't deny that!
 
(now i'm even more sure that he went to KL with her!)
 
what's next? hah well, i'm going to play it my way. i'm just going to play along and see how long he can 2-time. anyway there's a new guy to play with now so it doesn't really matter... somehow they just seem to fall in line eh? *grin*

oooh sneaky sneaky!!

jon's probably gonna smack me for saying this but who cares! it's so good, it's worth sharing! hahaha girls, here's a real sneaky way to kiss that guy. it's got to be the sneakies ever! learn! guys, watch out! *grin*

(guy just asked girl if she ate durians)
girl: no. smell my hand! (offers hand)
guy: (gingerly takes her hand and smells it) mmm yeah there isn't any smell.. oh well..
girl: see! told ya i really didn't eat durians! no smell! smell my breath! smell my breath!!
(then the girl leans towards the guy and just as when the unsuspecting guy is about to take a small whiff of air....)
girl: *MUACKS*

hahahahahahahaha there you go! the sneakiest kiss ever! guys, now you know! when a girl asks you to smell her breath, you better think twice. hahahhahaha get her a breathalyser, give her some mint or something instead! else don't ask her if she ate durians!

it's my first roadshow tomorrow! my first dabble in sales *grin* mmm wonder how many applications i can get! ideally would be to get each customer to sign about 4 cards (plus e-statements too!!). all i need is 10 customers and i will get 40 applications! hehe

ask me anything about citibank credit cards! hahah i should be able to answer you!

wish me luck and pray for me! goodnight.. zzzz...

NOW he tells me we were supposed to go KL tmr. gggrrr!!! and it becomes MY fault coz i've got roadshows to do this week. bleh. well it's his fault coz he didn't confirm with me again before he flew off to phuket! *humph* and with him it's never confirmed till the very day (well who am i to complain coz i keep changing my plans too. BUT that's not the point! hahaha) if he had confirmed with me before sunday, i would have told susan that i can't help her with the roadshows! the roadshow starts tmr and TODAY he tells me we're going KL tmr. *rolls eyes* and he insists that he did tell me that he already took leave. must have been in his dreams. so once again, the KL trip is postponed. bleh. and i start school in 2 weeks time! that's IT! no need to go for my holiday. unless i book tickets for the next flight out to phuket or koh samui. anybody wanna go with me?

he's still going KL without me (and he still thinks its MY fault!). with a FRIEND. doesn't want to tell me who. he just maintains it as "friend". "i'm going with my friend". bleh. the nameless faceless friend. i kept insisting the "friend" MUST be a girl coz he doesn't want to tell me and he's like "why can't it be a guy? keeping you in suspense is good." whatever. like i care! hah. probably candice. *rolls eyes* ok FINEEEE! ppffft!

school starts in 2 weeks... will i ever get to go for my holiday?? *whines*

work is good for me.. here are some reasons why:
1. shopping money. (though he keeps reminding me to save...)
2. keeps my mind of certain things.. when i'm idling, my mind tends to wander.. then i'll scheme and plan. *evil grin*
3. keeps me out of trouble too...
4. kills time
5. helps me save money in a way. coz i have no time to go shopping. everyday it's just work..
6. makes me a morning person now. unfortunately!
7. i exercise! well, sort of. i have to walk for about 20mins from raffles link to millenia tower every morning so it's some sort of work out. *sheepish grin*
8. keeps me from being more of a bum than i already am
9. least i have proper eating patterns. if i'm bumming at home, chances are i'll skip lunch and get gastric.
10. makes me more polite. hahahaha i have to deal with customers now so i don't exactly have a choice! i have to be polite to them, though it's so tempting to snap back sometimes! ggrrr!
(gee, it wasn't easy thinking of those 10 reasons! only the first few were spontaneous)

yay! finally a saturday i can sleep in. with no one to wake me up to go for breakfast or lunch.

i'm so tired... don't think i'm going to go out this weekend! next week's going to be busy busy busy. was supposed to go up to KL but now that i've got roadshows to do from wednesday to friday, KL has to be postponed again. heh i haven't told him yet. i'd really rather go to koh samui than KL. the only reason i would go to KL would be to visit alicia...

ignorance is bliss!

i don't want to think about it. i don't want to know. *covers ears and shuts eyes* leave me alone! i was doing a very good job of feigning ignorance so let me be. stop asking me questions i can't answer. don't make me think about it at all coz i don't want to. let me live in my own little world!!! in my own world, it's only me, me ane me only. the rest of the people are like passing shadows; they come and go. they can't hurt me.

i'm like a river... choosing to take the easiest path and going round obstacles. yes, JR, one day i will come to the end and get lost in the sea. but maybe my river would run dry even before it reaches the sea. evaporated to form the clouds in the sky. then coming down as rain and starting the journey all over again. maybe. just maybe. or i could get lost somewhere in between the heavens and the earth. floating water droplets in the atmosphere.

maybe i'm too cynical and skeptical for my own good. whatever he says, i just listen. i don't trust him totally and i only take what he tells me at face value. goes in one ear, goes right out through the other. it doesn't add up. and i don't care. though you can say that with the amount of time he's spending with me, he would hardly have time to 2-time. but, like i always say, a day has 24 hrs... *shrugz* i wouldn't be surprised if he's seeing another girl too. actually, i think he is. amazingly, i don't really care. guess i've been through like the worst with luke, i'm pretty immuned to just about anything right now. heh. almost unbreakable. but what can i say right? we're not exactly together. and i don't care. don't ask me how come i'm not bothered with the fact that he might be seeing someone else. it may seem impossible to you that with the time he spends with me; he wants to meet me almost 3 times a week and the rest of the time he tells me where he is, whatever for i don't know. but he could well be telling some version of the truth.

see, i'm too skeptical. i don't trust easily. giving him the benefit of the doubt, he could be telling the truth but... i still think there's more to it. i'm not bothered, neither am i affected. but then again, i'm always weirdly calm when i'm not supposed to be.

if there is such a thing as karma, then this might be my own doing. hah. what goes around does come around. it happened to me before. it will happen again. maybe it's happening right now. for what i did before, i might be getting it back. hahahaha well, then i wouldn't give her the satisfaction. i've been on both sides before and i know what it takes and how it's done *grin*

i'm zonked out. *yawn* chilled out at indochine with marianne, elaine and my cousin. we were supposed to meet for dinner but somehow ended up at the indochine at asian civilisation museum for drinks instead. hahaha! ambience was there. it's a pretty cool place to chill out! the couches were so comfy and the weather was awesome! the perfect weather to be chilling out in, under the stars! that's something i haven't done in the longest while. it seemed like ages since i last chilled out with them! i must have spent the last few weeks with reg... was like seeing him almost 3 times a week! eeks. how boring! but what am i complaining... i haven't been spending much! hah. well, it's not like i didn't offer to pay! i want to pay everytime but he just refuses. ain't my fault, right!

no one has time to go koh samui with me!!! everyone either has no money or no time. *pouts*

next week's the time for self pampering. yay! finally made an appointment for my long overdue manicure and pedicure and wax. don't care if he wants to go KL on monday/tues coz i already made my appointments. not going to wait for him to tell me his plans. it's always only 24hr notice. *rolls eyes* and he always assumes that i'm free...

school's starting in 2 weeks. time flies man! i just know i will have the "holiday hangover" and i will suffer from major inertia to get back into school mode. *sheepish grin*

browsing through my first issue of Shape Singapore i bought today... they have pretty good stuff on getting all toned and shaped up! my aim now is to be their cover girl 1 year from now. everybody must buy ok?! then it will be a sell-out issue! hahahah! well first things first, i need to get in shape! toned abs and all! *grin*

i realised i'm saving quite a bit of money by taking bus to work! why didn't i do it before! guess sleep got the better of me. and besides, i think i'm more of a morning person now. (horror of all horrors! hahaha) i get out of bed pretty easily in the mornings and i don't even feel sleepy and tired in the afternoons! i used to feel mega sleepy after lunches but not now! in fact, time passes pretty fast at citi. maybe it's coz i'm so busy with work. i handled another supposedly nasty customer today. he was rather nice to me and didn't snap at me at all. hehe maybe i ought to consider going into the customer service line. i seem to have a knack for handling customers, and especially pleasing the nasty ones.

*yawn* there are other stuff that i want to write about but my thoughts are scattering and drifting away... remind me that i wanted to say something about me and reading. and i wanted to write about comparisons too.. i'm getting incoherent. a sign that it's time for bed... i'm outta here!

where is my holiday??

i need a long relaxing holiday. by the beach. waves, sunset and a cocktail. perfect! i wanna go on a holiday!! *whines* i suspect everyone's just saying okok to me just to appease me. but its only all talk. *pouts* mummy said she'll bring me to HK for a shopping trip... but now she's saying it's too hot there. my cousin said she'd go koh samui with me for a week... but she's showing no signs of taking leave and booking the tix! and i was supposed to go bangkok... that evaporated too. i guess i'm just left with a weekend trip up to KL (which isn't confirmed too...)

*sigh* so much for my massage and cocktail on the beach with the sunset in the background...

went car shopping again today after church. i like the sales guy at audi. he gave my brother and I a ride back in the A4 Cabrio, top down!! *grin* that car's not for test drive coz it's only for display in the showroom but he drove it out of the showroom (he had to move out the other 3 cars in the showroom, which brought on alot of curious stares from those there) and brought us out for a spin (well only coz my dad bought a car from him...) ahh... what a splendid sunday! he wanted to speed it down the winding road but too bad there were cars in front of us. damn, it would have been such a thrill! but it was better than nothing. speeding down the expressway was good enough. sometimes i'm easily pacified. ;) at $209k, that cabrio's quite a steal actually!

after 2 weeks of car shopping, i haven't gone to the BMW showroom yet! *pouts* actually there's nothing much i want to see. i've sat in the 3 and 5 series before. and the 320 coupe and the cabrio too... so i guess there's nothing much. but i still want to go see! *humph* Volkswagon has a pink beetle!

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bumming at home on a friday night. why? coz somebody's too lazy to come on out. hah. i just knew he wouldn't meet me after dinner coz he would be too tired and lazy. tsk sometimes i wonder who's more of a bum: me or him. definitely has to be him though. he sleeps so much. (it is kinda suspicious... mmm)

my sleeping habits have seemed to changed too. i'm becoming more of a morning person and i'm sleeping early! yikes. his sleeping habits are getting to me. oh no! i can barely stay awake after 12 and so i end up sleeping really early! :s

i'm actually enjoying my work at citibank. more so than my attachment! it's pretty interesting speaking with customers.. some of them are nice, some are just plain bitchy. i speak to like a hundred over customers a day... perpetually on the phone... for an average of 9hrs/day. gee by the time i get home, the last thing i want to do is talk on the phone! if i may say so, i think i provide pretty good customer service though i have the potential to be the customer from hell. guess that's part of the reason why i am able to provide such good customer service. *grin*

a day of firsts...

for the first time since i started working at millenia tower, i took a bus to work. (okay, here's where you're supposed to say i'm good and applaud me!!) it has always been daddy sending me to work. then when he moved office, i started taking a cab. horridly expensive! especially with all the traffic jams, peak hour charges and ERP. everyday for the past few months i keep telling myself that i will try to take the bus but i never got to doing it. *sheepish grin* well, yeah i finally got irritated with all those extra charges. so this morning i woke up earlier and caught the bus. the ride wasn't too bad.. i reached exactly at 9. another first! and i didn't feel sick even though the bus ride took about 30mins (coz of the jam.. it's normally only about 15mins). i'd usually feel sick if the ride takes any longer than 15-20mins..

and i should have bought yesterday's match Portugal vs Holland. i was just telling a friend that the score would be 2-1, in Portugal's favour. don't know why i said that. i've never watched a single match of the Euro cup. so it was a really wild wild wild guess!! imagine my shock and surprise this morning when i saw the results! Portugal 2 Holland 1! *big eyes* gee if i had bought, i would have won!!! won both on the number of goals and the team! :o most of the times i would only get either the team right but seldom the number of goals! there you go! another first!

oooohhh i just had the most romantic moonlight dinner under the stars with jason!! hahahahaha there was a power outage at holland v and it was pitch black. is that cool or what! people started cheering, some kids even got their hands on those sparklers and they were walking around with it! hehe quite exciting eh?

imagine those people stuck in the lifts when the power went out! yikes! i wouldn't want to be in that kind of situation. i'd be sure to freak out! i'd probably get a panic attack and black out myself. hahaha. well, i guess it wouldn't be so bad if i was with some friend. but if i was alone, or with some stranger (what if its, horror of all horrors, a smelly indian!! *gasp*) i think i will just faint!!

jason tan!!!!! WHERE ARE YOU!!!! argh. i'm soo sleepy already.. *yawn* and i'm hungry too.. can't decide which is more: hunger or sleepiness.

just got back from malaysia.. we drove up to malacca for lunch. this is my first trip to malaysia after like almost more than 10 years! haha. well it was as laid back as i expected... a somewhat two-and-a-half-world country. it's not exactly 3rd world, yet it's not really 2nd world either. i'm so thankful i live in singapore! almost everything in malaysia was like so from centuries ago!

didn't really do much in malacca itself.. in fact we just had lunch. the rest of the time we were just driving around. the drive up and down was more fun!! heh the trip there took about 1h 45mins and the ride home was 1hr 30mins. the speed was exhilirating! whoooohooo!! it was about 160-180km/h all the way and the occassional 200km/h. *grin* he wanted to go up to KL and stay for the night but i couldn't take leave tmr coz really busy at work.. maybe over the weekend. ;) the only reason i would go up to malaysia so often would be because of the drive... it's the only time that you can go at 180km/h! and i loooooove speed! haha now i know why he always wants to go up to malaysia.

my little protesting growling tummy got me out of bed. just in time for mummy and daddy to bring me out to buy dinner back. perfect timing. heh

i just moved my junk from the car to my room. eeks. now i gotta start to pack. :|
trying to find some obscure part of my room which i can conveniently hide these stuff for the time being...

i'm bumming at home again on a saturday... all nicely tucked up in bed. *yawn* i'm sleepy but i don't really want to sleep. just hiding in my room so i don't have to clear the mess of things in the car which i brought back from hall. i'm such an escapist. *stretch* who isn't?! i don't exactly fancy packing stuff. and i didn't realise i had so much junk in hall. i would like to leave those things in the car for as long as i possibly can but i know mummy will make sure i clear them by tonight. *sigh* maybe if i don't wake up till tmr morning, she can't say anything? hehehe

i'm addicted to tv and spider solitaire.. it's a terribly serious addiction! it used to be mahjong, now its these. speaking of mahjong, it's been awhile... hmmm.. mahjong anyone?

had breakfast at ghim moh this morning. yummy! something i haven't done in a looong time!

i'm thinking of taking up tennis. i know i've been saying that for a looong time but this time i went 1 step further: i even got the tennis coach's number. *grin* now i just have to call him and fix a date. ;)

... waiting for my money to come in then i can go shopping again. i still wanna go for my holiday! but i don't know who to go with (rather everyone's either busy/broke...) and i haven't really decided where to go. of coz the states and europe would be sweet but i've got no money and i don't think my parents are going to pay for me. =( so i just have to settle for somewhere nearer.

i feel kinda weird that he pays for me everytime. and i think i'm starting to take it as a norm. that's bad. i should suggest we take turns or something but he doesn't like ppl to pay for him either. heh like tt how! he's spoiling me...

what's Murphy's Law? everything that can go wrong will go wrong? is that the one? that law IS definitely true. gee. this morning was the presentation. and everything that you could dream of went wrong! the projector wasn't working. there wasn't a LAN cable in the meeting room. THEN my laptop had to momentarily die. who ever doesn't belive in Murphy's Law should have been there. heh yeah well, everything's over. i felt the presentation was quite crappy (possibly my worst ever) but they said it was good (i think they were just being nice! haha). how good can it get? i only prepared my presentation this morning when i got into office. did it in about an hour or so. hahaha. didn't even practice. didn't even know what i was going to say. didn't even take a 2nd look at the slides i prepared... *grin* told ya i couldn't really be bothered anymore...

i'm so tired. i wanna go to bed... can't belive i'm actually starting work again on monday. at the same building. just 7 floors down. i seem to be stuck at Millenia Tower! least the job at citibank is pretty brainless.. just data entry. no office politics. no datelines. no presentation. just mundane data entry. and better money. hah!

please say a little prayer for me tomorrow... i really got to crap well big time! and i have no idea how i'm going to do it...

i've decided not to do and just go sleep. i spent the past hour looking for pics of the fairy godmother from shrek 2. so much for opening up the powerpoint. heh..

i'm supposed to have a presentation in less than 12 hours from now and i haven't prepared for it. for some weird reason, i don't seem to be the least bothered and i'm not even panicking. well i was for awhile in the afternoon.. then when i came home, i just kept shrugging it off.

my boss told me this afternoon that kathy and me had to do a 10 minutes formal presentation to the senior management tmr morning on our past 6 months with the company... what we did and how we benefited from it. i'm so tired.. piled up high with the website and now he just dumps this thing on me.

i'm starting to feel pissed off. maybe that's why i can't be bothered. coz the irritation is setting in. i rather spend the last few hours meddling with the HTML code of this blog then to start on my presentation. i finally made the falling stars appear in between the side bar and the content! am i not the most brilliant one? *grin* i spent like a good 2 hours figuring out how to do it. and with NO ONE's help! i actually did it by myself!!! yay yay yay!!! i'm sooooo happy!!!! hahah if only you could see the grin on my face right now!

ok it's already 12:40.. guess it's about time i started working on my presentation. i just opened up powerpoint. it's a start...

i'll be starting work at citibank (yes, citibank again.. haha) on monday. *grin* yeah more shopping money! least i get more there than here! what i get from citi in 1 month is equivalent to my 2 months internship pay!

my money evaporates faster than water on a hot day! i've been working for the past 5 months and i still have $0 left in my account. heh. and i haven't even really been shopping! yeah i did shop alot in the first few months but the past 2 or 3 months i didn't even shop! mmm i wonder where all the money went. food? yeah look at my fat arms and chubby cheeks. that's evidence of where all the money went! hahahaha then i would have to spend money to lose the fats. may as well not spend the money on food then there would be no need to spend money on abdo-choc right? that's why all the money should just go to shopping. *grin* but i like to eat and i'm eating so much. i take for granted my usually high metabolism rate. i used to be able to eat alot of junk and what nots and not put on a single pound. but NOW! *sobz* i think i'm getting old and my metabolism rate is slowing down... *sigh* hence you can see the fats creeping out and popping out in all the most undesirable places!

alrighty, here i am once again. finally found some time to blog!! heh. coz the server has decided to go crazy again and i can only wait till 8pm tonight before i can see the changes. hopefully all goes well. else tmr wouldn't be my last day... :|

i've been so busy the whole week, i didn't have any time to update my blog. everything was just happening at the same time and i was so tired at the end to even write in here... working late every night! last night was working till 10 until i finnaly gave up. have to fix up the website and make sure it's perfect before friday, else my boss will not sign my release form. *pouts* everyday there seems to be some new problem with the server. tsk. if you ask me, they should have never upgraded it and do content migration! this new server is so painfully slow and troublesome!

now that i've finally pieced all the pieces together and added the missing links, the QA server has to die!! argh. i can't see the changes i've made. *SIGH* and tmr's friday. it's supposed to be my last day but how come it doesn't even feel like it?

Fantastic Friday!!

i was out with jason the whole day... mostly window shopping coz we were both broke. well, i bought a few stuff. i couldn't help it. A|X was having a sale!!! *innocent grin* saw lots of stuff that i want. but i guess they have to wait till the next pay. like the little A|X denim dress (which makes me look skinny! yay!), a pair of Gucci shades, and the platinum Sookee bracelet.

caught Shrek 2 (FINALLY!!). whoa it was hilarious! oh the whole theater was full of kids though! can you believe it?! and it was a morning show! i thought the kids would be at home doing homework or something. but NO! they were invading the theaters! gee. but luckily the kids were not noisy else i would have hit them with one of those plastic hammers.. you know those kind which squeaks? yeah.. *grin*

and we did a funny stupid thing too. hahaha got a souvenir from Paulaner Brauhaus at Millenia. a beer mug!! hahaha after we finished our drinks we just decided to take the mug too. it looks cool! and besides the cost of the beer had to be inclusive of the mug. who charges about $15 for a 0.5l mug of beer! hmm should have taken the cocktail glass too. *grin* hey jason, take some pics and post it up!

was suppoesd to meet reg and his friends for dinner and then movie but didn't make it for the dinner in the end. would have skipped the movie too if they hadn't already bought the tickets. humph. hate it that he always makes decisions and then tells me at the last minute!

after the movie i went to zouk to look for jason and kathy. was feeling so pissed off with reg. don't ask what happened. i just was. i refused to answer his calls... i must have had like 10 missed calls.. it's so irritating that my phone just kept ringing the whole time i was at zouk. i didn't want to tell him i was going but in the end his friends saw me and told him i was there with some guys. hah. well it's not like i'm his girlfriend anyway. to me at least. ;)

oh yeah i saw my fling at zouk too. *grin* wasn't expecting to see him there coz they guys were out and i knew he wasn't going to be there. then suddenly this guy in front of me tugged at my hand so i turned around and was stunned for a moment coz i wasn't expecting to see him. heh. yeah so i was like hey! mmm is your girlfriend here? and he went yeah. so i just rolled my eyes at him at turned my back on him. haha. we spoke for awhile after that and i realised that the girlfriend's friends were kinda making sure that they were in between us on the dancefloor. and they were staring daggers at me. now, that really pissed me off. i wasn't even doing anything! didn't even flirt with him. what's up with them! well, if they want to help her make sure he's far away from me, i'll make sure she sees him talking to me more. *cheeky grin* so when i saw him walk away from the dancefloor alone, i followed. and i turned back to look at his girlfriend and her friends. hah. that look on her face was priceless. *smug* later kathy told me that while we were gone, lots of swear words were flying back and forth. hahahaha yeah! mission accomplished. gee, i can be such a bitch at times eh? *grin*

had a loooong fun-filled day and an even more exciting night! haha i had great fun today! yipee!!

Just A Girl

Take this pink ribbon off my eyes
I'm exposed
And it's no big surprise
Don't you think I know
Exactly where I stand
This world is forcing me
To hold your hand

'Cause I'm just a girl, little ol' me
Don't let me out of your sight
I'm just a girl, all pretty and petite
So don't let me have any rights
Oh... I've had it up to here!

The moment that I step outside
So many reasons
For me to run and hide
I can't do the little things
I hold so dear
'Cause it's all those little things
That I fear

'Cause I'm just a girl,
I'd rather not be
'Cause they won't let me drive
Late at night
I'm just a girl,
Guess I'm some kind of freak
'Cause they all sit and stare
With their eyes
I'm just a girl,
Take a good look at me
Just your typical prototype
Oh... I've had it up to here!
Oh... am I making myself clear?

I'm just a girl
I'm just a girl in the world...
That's all that you'll let me be!

I'm just a girl, living in captivity
Your rule of thumb
Makes me worry some
I'm just a girl, what's my destiny?
What I've succumbed to
Is making me numb
I'm just a girl, my apologies
What I've become is so burdensome
I'm just a girl, lucky me
Twiddle-dum there's no comparison

Oh... I've had it up to!
Oh... I've had it up to!
Oh... I've had it up to here

i just got back from my run. i out ran myself this time. ran all the way to haw par villa and back! my legs feel kinda wobbly and the world seems to be spinning... think my ears are ringing too...

this week feels short!! i worked for 2 days, had a break for 1 day. worked another day, and it's a looongg weekend for me! hahah! i love this kinda weeks, don't you? *grin*

maybe i'll go for a short run now..

oh yipee!!! CINELEISURE'S THE BEST!!! they cancelled my booking for me! hahahaha. aren't they just the greatest? if it was GV they will definitely not budge. that's why i only watch my movies at cine!!

now i'm going to watch Shrek 2 at 1155am with jason. so i still get to watch my Shrek 2. YAY! hah! probably going to watch eternal sunshine with marianne in the afternoon. then around the world in 80 days (*sigh*) with him and his friends at night. it's going to be a movie marathon tmr!

uh oh. i somehow landed myself with 2 movie tickets for tomorrow night. i already arranged to watch shrek 2 with jason at 825pm. JUST booked the tix only! then reg called and asked if i wanted to join him and his friends tomorrow for dinner and a movie afetr at about 9-nish. i said i can't coz i already agreed to meet jason. then he said he'll ask his friend to cancel the ticket. and i was like, huh? you booked the tix already?! just assuming i didn't have any plans!

how now? shrek's at 825 and around the world in 80 days is at 930 or 945. if it was slightly later, i could still make it for both. i hardly think shrek 2's going to finish in 1 hour. argh! if he called me like a few minutes earlier, i wouldn't have booked my tix. but he called just after i booked them!

how how how? i'm going to have to cancel on one. better yet, i cancel on both! wahahahaha. i want to watch shrek 2. i so do! but he already told his friends i'd be joining them. *throws hand up in despair* why couldn't he have checked with me before! it's either i waste the shrek ticket or the other one... *sigh* how come i always end up in situations like that! this time it's really not my fault!

ahhh i'm so busy but i'm so sleepy too! don't know why i'm feeling so tired and sleepy.. -_- i slept at 11 last night! 9 hours should be enough for me on a normal day. *yawn* had difficulty pulling myself out of bed this morning too. heh told ya i'm crazy; yesterday i could sleep in but i didn't. today when i need to wake up for work, i can't wake up. and i slept so early yesterday night! even earlier than tuesday night. tsk. something's wrong with me.

the state of mess the website is in is so totally driving me crazy. i don't know how to start. it's in such a disarray and i feel absolutely disoriented. =|

don't like the fact that i have to work with people in different time zones. the whole world should have the same time.

tempting...

he asked if i wanted to go japan with him. and he said he'd pay for my ticket. terribly tempting, but... *shrugz* i don't know... i'm not the kind of gal who feels comfortable with someone paying for me. and if i want to go japan, then i can't buy my diamond bracelet... and i would need to start saving for it..

... i didn't manage to watch Shrek 2 today!!! the timings were just all wrong. *sigh* ended up watching chronicles of riddick instead. it totally sucked. acting was bad. shooting was bad. everything just seemed so chaotic and blurry.. and all that blinking lights just gave me a huge headache. most of time my eyes were shut to block out the blurry visions before me. bad bad bad bad show. there were not cute guys even...

i had a great day today. =) spent the whole day with him. well not whole, but almost. of all the times i've been out with him, today's got to be the longest.. haha today feels like a saturday. though we didn't really do anything but i pretty much enjoyed his company all the same.

of diamonds and me

was at goldheart's and sookee's on monday... saw these 2 half tennis bracelets at goldheart's. it was soooo pretty! one was $450 and the other's about $900 after discount. hehe. and then there's this retro-ish white gold bracelet at sookee. that was soooo pretty!!!! *bright smile* but i'm quite, no VERY broke now! =( sigh. just got to wait till next week for my pay and when everybody returns me money, i will have enough to get both the sookee bracelet and the goldheart diamond one. hehehe. yeah then after that i'll be so darn broke again. sigh. it's a vicious cycle! i get money, i shop then i'm broke. i really need to save. *blink blink*

i'm surprisingly up early for a day that i'm on leave! but i cant sleep in anymore. i'm crazy eh? when i can sleep in, i don't. but when i can't, i want to. heh guess the past few months of early mornings has gotten to me and sorta made me a morning person. eeks! i don't want to be a morning person! gee it's only 930! i was actually up at 9! i'm kinda hungry... mmm i could use some Mcdonald's breakfast! yum yum yummy! there's a 24hr Mcdonalds near me now. at west coast park. YAY! 24hrs!!! cool! least i can have more than just pratas for supper now! *grin*

the little deviant one says:
guys are bad and evil
the little deviant one says:
but they are like the necessary evil
some people are better off dead~ says:
haha
some people are better off dead~ says:
how so?
the little deviant one says:
like life without them wld be boring coz they wld be no one to upset us

my long and busy day

*plop* i can finally sit down, relax and breathe! gee i had such a terribly busy day today, time just flew past! had a conference call at 7am this morning. thank God i had enough sense to bring home my laptop and take the call from home. least i can wake up at 650 instead of 6! needless to say, i tumbled right back into bed after the call and only went to work at 10. *grin*

i've got so much work to do now! you would think that i would be very free coz attachment ends next week, but NO!!!! my website is all in a mess now after the content migration!!! *pouts* i did it up so nicely, all ready for launch! but they had to decide to upgrade the system and migrate contents! now everything is in a mess! there are missing channels and floating contents without properly assigned channels so they don't even appear at all!! and the new system is such a mess. it's such a hassle just to publish a content/channel! *sigh* and then there are the security issues and whatnots to deal with... i've got problem publishing, unpublishing, editing and deleting channels and contents. =( i effectively have until next friday to get the website launched properly. else think might have to extend IA! i don't want!!! it's not my fault that the whole thing's in a huge mess now!!!

i spent the whole of today re-creating all the channels. worked through lunch till 7! that's like 9 hours straight, no break! too busy to even feel hungry. sigh. poor me!!! and half the time i was so feeling frustrated coz i can't publish the channels i created so i can't see it on the site!!! argh. so it's like only half done. after that, i still have to poke around for the missing contents and reassign them to the respective channels. *sigh* hopefully the contents are still somewhere around! my greatest fear would be that they are not even migrated over and lost in space somewhere! then i would have to do it all over again. i took about a month to do up the site, how do i finish it in 5 days now??!!!

was supposed to have another 7am call tmr about the website but the gal over in houston can't make it. heh it's good news on 1 hand, coz it means i can sleep right through (i'm on leave tmr!! yay!!!!!) but it also means my problems can't be solved till thursday...

i'm so tired! gonna have an early night tonight, as with the past few nights. heh i think i caught his sleepy bug! he's the one sleeping late now!! it used to be me! ah well, goodnight! tonight's sleep is going to be the longest i had in MONTHS!

whiling away the time

time is almost crawling today!! thank God it's going to be a short week. after today's over, i'm left with tuesday and thursday to deal with.

i've got a 7am conference call tomorrow... *yawn* indecent hour to be awake if you ask me. this is the crap you get when you're working in a US-based company. you have to work US hours too. tsk. do you think i can come in late tmr? hehe... or maybe i can work from home? that would be sweet.

sugar, spice and everything nice!

How to make a princess

Ingredients: 5 parts jealousy 1 part humour 3 parts beauty

Method: Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of lustfulness

Name:

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

i hope he can take leave tooo... else there wouldn't be anyone else to hang out with me! everyone else is working. =(

i want to go shopping and catch up on all the movies that i haven't watched.. there shouldn't be so many kids swarming town in the morning and afternoon right? it's almost the end of holidays, they should be at home doing their homework or studying. aren't they sick of town already? i would be if i was there everyday!

i wanna watch shrek 2 and enternal sunshine of the spotless mind too. is mean girls out yet? oh i want to catch the laws of attraction too!!!

you guys should go catch The Punisher. it's a surprisingly good movie! i personally think it's better than Troy!! definitely worth a watch.

my long distance part-time boyfriend

jason's back! yay! my long distance part-time boyfriend. hahahahahahahahahaha don't ask me how that happen. neither one of us remember. he just is.

we made a peace treaty yesterday. we agreed not to slam each other for as long as we can. (he's just about as "sweet" to me as i am to him) hahaha the loser has to buy dinner. you don't know how difficult it is to hold my tongue. argh. it's so easy to poke fun at him because he's the funniest! wahahhahaha and for the record, he's always scolding me too!! humph. so it's only fair that i bite back, right right right?! i wonder who's going to slip up! jason, hurry up now and scold me back. haha i can't hold my tongue any longer. and i wish you'd stop saying things that would only serve as baits to slam you.

kai keeps having this silly idea in her head that me and jason ought to get together. ugh. never ever!!! kai, you watch too many movies. 2 squabbling people only end up together in books, movies and tv serials. not in real life! me and jason tan? never ever ever!!! we'll be squabbling all the time. wahahahahaa

the lady sings the monday blues

and for the zillionth, kazillonth time: THE WEEKEND IS WAY TOOO SHORT!!!! it's monday all too soon again!! =(

but looking on the bright side, this week is only a 3 day week for me... i'm going to be on leave on thursday and friday! YAY!! then after that, it's only 5 more days to the end of this attachment. i can sleep in all i want. though maybe i ought to find some temp job to finance my shopping trips and holidays. my monthly expenses is way too high. i'm one person the credit card companies will love. credit cards might actually be my curse and i think i should not get one next time when i start working.

mmm... about time i learnt the meaning of the word "save" and start saving. my money seems to evaporate faster than water on a hot day!!

my "break up" song is playing over the airwaves now. of all the break ups i had, i only have 1 break up song. haha i like that song. lyrics aside, everything about it is nice. the lyrics are so us... and it just had to play at that time. tsk... it says everything that we couldn't bring ourselves to say... *half smile*

i like french songs now. though i don't understand most of it. but it's soothing, somehow... bought a french cd: dans mon île (which means in my island) and it's playing in my cd player now... love it!!!

bum bum sunday!

i spent the whole afternoon in front of the tv... for about a good 6 hours i was just slumped in the sofa with my laptop, cushions and the remote controls. hah i'm a tv addict.

the guy from baywatch hawaii, jason momoa is so yummy... he's so gorgeous!! now, this is what i call tall, dark and handsome!!





*sigh* isn't he the most gorgeous?

little twiggly wiggly pig

saw this cutest ty beanie pig.. got that for him first. hahah it's sooooo cuutee! here's the little piggy:

awwww.... isn't he just oh-so adorable?!!!

ugh i think i had too much chocolate. i feel sick.

i just spent the whole afternoon playing around with HTML codes. was having quite a bit of fun changing the format of the blogs and the colours. hehe guess blogging is the only way to make me look at HTML codes. before this i have never looked at HTML before. though it still doesn't make much sense to me, i think i sorta get the idea what is for what. hehe

*yawwwwwn* yet another lazy afternoon at work. i don't have any work left to do for today. i can't even be bothered to look busy anymore. if not for the fact that all my friends are at work, i will skive off! but even if i go off now, there's no one to go shopping with me. so i guess i will just stay in office. it's only a few hours more anyway! about 3 1/2... doesn't sound too bad. only kathy's not here today, so it is a little more boring. heh no one to be crazy with me.

i caught his sleepy bug.. i've been sleeping very early the past few nights! i used to be able to stay awake till about 3am doing whatnots even if i'm super tired, but now i can hardly stay past 12! i just tumble right into bed after showering. AND i still feel sleepy the next morning... i just go lazier than i originally was. and you thought i couldn't be any worse than that.

i'm hungreeeeee!!! waiting for marianne to be done with her massage... i also want massage!!! i've already a long list of to-dos after attachment is over!

~*~SLEEEP!!!! i so need to catch up on my loss sleep...
~*~MASSAGE! hah! finally will have time to get one
~*~HOLIDAY! i know where i want to go, but i have limited funds. *sigh* so i just have to plan again within my limits. =( any sponsors?
~*~shop shop shop! i just know there a lots of pretty stuff out there waiting for me to buy them! *grin*

it's only 8 days left to the end of this attachment!!! YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY!!! i can see the rainbow again!!!

birthday's tmr and i still have no idea what to get... i realised i'm pretty hopeless when it comes to getting guy's presents nowadays. haha maybe it's coz i didn't have to buy anything for a guy for a long time... *shrugz* gift ideas anyone??

it's only 230... lunch is sinking in and i'm getting all drowsy... there's about 3 1/2 hrs more. how do i stay awake? i'm so sleepy i need to walk around. if i sit here any longer, my eyelids will close on me. -_-

this blog is starting to look kinda boring.. the other one is so much better! it's so pretty... heh i'm so in love with the other one!! too lazy to go make changes to this template's code though...

my nails need repainting and trimming.. but my manicurist is out of town. how? i can't recall the last time i cut my own nails. heh. i sound like a total brat, i know! bleh!

it's official: this attachment has made me put on weight.

the weighing scale is my enemy. i dare not take my weight. if it's anything close to 50kg i think i will faint. everyone who has seen me haa said that i've put on weight on my face and arms. even luke who saw a picture i took last year said i looked like i put on some weight. and i was like, hahaha that picture was taken last year. if i looked fatter in that picture, i'm even fatter now!!

although they're saying me putting on weight is a good thing coz i was so skinny before i should still stop eating so much else i will put on even more weight. and it wouldn't be such a good thing anymore. my arms are getting too flabby, so are my legs. and my tum tum tooo.... *sobz*

i forgot what i wanted to write. hah. i wanted to say something and while i was waiting for the page to load, i forgot what i had in mind. no, the page didn't take a long time to load. i just have the best memory. hehe

it's been raining all morning... how awesome is that?! it's such a beautiful weather! perfect for sleeping in too! i love rainy weather.. the dark skies, the pitter patter of raindrops, coupled with flashes of lighting and the rumbling roar of thnuder! it's all cold and nice! if i had my way, i would be curled up on the sofa in front of the tv, maybe with a book and of course, a cup of hot camomile tea! mmmm!! what i would give to be at home right now, all snuggled up!

can't wait for this attachment to end! 11 more days! yay!! *jumps up and down*

nah it should be like what i have always been saying: 4 day work week (mon-thurs) and 3 day weekend (fri-sun). first we have to make those people at the top see how productive a 4 day work week would be. i mean, everybody is already skiving on friday. why not make it official, right? then when they are convinced that 4 day work week is good, we inject into them the idea that 3 day work week is even better! hahaha 1 day less of work wouldn't make a difference but 1 day more of rest would make a whole world of difference! those people who want to work more can always bring work home and do!

ok let's put this plan into action so that by the time i start work it will hopefully be a 3 day work week!!

oh YAY!! i don't have to do that stupid woman's work anymore! haha my boss pulled me out of her project! whoopeee!!
but poor kathy still has to do it. i can't just leave her in the lurch like that right? i will probably help her. i rather help her than work for that woman.

and i get to take my 2 days leave too!!! yeah!!! will probably take it next thursday and friday... then i'll have an ultra long weekend! and i can go phuture on wednesday too!!! i miss phuture on wednesdays... it's been a while since i went on a wednesday!

so i managed to get the afternoon off! hahaha YAY! went to catch the 520pm troy with marianne. we are such skivers! hahahaha!

town was practically overflowing with young kids! they are everywhere!!! it's so crowded even on a monday afternoon. sheesh and i thought i could escape the weekend crowds... even the theater screening troy was packed! ended up in the first row! didn't see the need to book tix in the morning coz we thought we were probably the only ones who havent caught Troy yet!

the first 2 hours of the show was painfully slow. for the first time, i wished i had popcorns! for someone like me who doesn't usually eat popcorns to actually want popcorns... you get the idea how restless i was! the last bit was not too bad... but the whole movie reminded me of Lord of the Rings and the Last Samurai. there were moments that i thought i was watching LOTR and the last samurai. hahahahaha

i hate mondays... they just don't feel right! the weekend is always a day or two too short... don't feel like working today... thinking of skiving off in the afternoon... take a mc or something!

hah! oh yay!! i found troy at cine. and it's showing at a decent time. marianne and me are probably the only 2 who hasn't caught it yet. hahaha but it's all bad timings! the last 3 weeks were so busy for us! and the show is 8 plus... by the time it ends it will be 11 plus and us, lazy bums, will be zonked out in the theater! hahaha! and the weekend timings are even crappier! 9am! you gotta be kidding me! so when i found decent showtimes today, i was so happy. haha but we don't want to catch the 825 show coz its too late. so we're thinking of leaving early to catch the 520 one! hah! hopefully she can leave early. i wanna take the afternoon off! *yawn* i need to get birthday pressies too... you think i can leave after lunch? *grin*

"There are several good protections against temptations, but the surest is cowardice." -Mark Twain

haha yeah so it pays to be a coward at times. least it gets you out of temptations...

mmm i still havent decided if i shloud go for the lunch later.. it'll be 6 guys and me. and i only know about 3 of them... reg can't meet me for lunch either.

how? to go or not to go? i feel that it will be weird... and plus i ought to stay away from those guys in the same camp. haha think i know too many of them already! too many for my own good.

ok i'm going shopping with elaine instead. FJ Benjamin's having a sale. whoopeeee!

well well well... isn't it funny that you only miss something when it's not there? i take some things for granted.. even complain and get irritated about it... but when the routine breaks, i get all disoriented and unnerved...

i probably should just go to bed...

never realised that a break in routine can be so unnerving...

the phone is not ringing...

hmm maybe i should go out after all... i want to watch shrek 2, troy and eternal sunshine of the spotless mind! who should i go out with?

... but im too much of a bum right now to change and go out! i've been sleeping the whole day... *yawn*

just woke up. best! havent been able to sleep in for the longest time! the last time was probably when i was on mc or something! hah. the last few weekends were all spent working. eeks!

i'm not going to do anything today! so don't ask me what i'm going to do, why i'm not out shopping or go out with you! i reckon town's gonna be pretty crowded today, and i'm traumatised by crowds! gonna hide in the safety of my home. safe from the jostling and hustle and bustle of town.

gonna find some food now... wonder if daddy is back with lunch yet..

hee hee hee i went shopping just now! and i bought a top and pants from topshop. yipee! havent gone lunch time shopping for a looong time!!

YAY!!!!!!! I FINISHED MY REPORT!!!!! I FINISHED MY REPORT!!!!!I FINISHED MY REPORT!!!!! whoopee! lalalala...

yesterday afternoon was a mad rush trying to finish up the last bits of it. heh we even skipped lunch without realising! both of us were just working through. haha i actually found someone as slack as me! how impossible is that! i think me and kathy are like the most amazing people you can ever find... with deadlines right under our noses, we can still go out and play. hahaha oh well we only took about 2 days to cough out the report. *grin* full of bullshit. even my boss could tell i was crapping. tsk.

but of course i have nel and shawn to thank for helping me!!! nel sacrificed her weekend and stayed with me in hall while i was struggling to keep my sanity. (i definitely would have gone mad if i was doing it alone!!) and being the darling that she always is, she offered to help me out with my abstract and conclusion. heehee. shawn was most awesome too!! he helped me to find crap on project management and actually put together a 1000 odd words piece on it in all of 20 mins!!

oh i got back at the stupid bitch in my report. hah in the last part, under recommendations and conclusion, i added the bit about how NTU ought to check if the attachement company and the organization supervisor had prior experience working with interns. (this is her first time having an intern under her) and also, irrelevant ad-hoc projects should not be dumped on the students. (that paragraph was written for kathy! the poor gal got tt bitch as her sup!) AND (this part is my favourite!!)IF any other employee, besides the immediate supervisor, wants to give work to the student, clearance must be made with the sup AND that project should NOT be demanded to be given priority over the student's current project. HAHAH!

now i just have to make sure she reads it. she's not my sup so i don't have to submit a copy to her but i suspect she will read it if it's left lying around. so i just have to lay the bait... leave that part of the report lying around. i'm sure she will read it. (the last time i left my magazine here, she flipped through it. how rude!) i even tagged that page so she can go straight to that section. oohhh i would LOVE to see her face go up in smoke. hahahahahahahaha

i slept 13 hours yesterday! can you believe it? i tumbled into bed at 730pm and only woke up this morning at 830 for work. hah. BEST sleep i had in months! but i still feel sleepy.. *sheepish grin* shall go back tonight and continue my sleeping marathon.. don't thnink i'm going to zouk already. though the thought of it is quite tempting!