i should just channel all my restlessness into my studies. i'm broke beyond broke so there's no way i can go shopping now. i've outshopped myself in the last few weeks. it's disgusting. my friend's right. i'm not even high maintanence. i'm unaffordable.

*cough* oh no.. i can feel my throat itching again. i was ok for awhile but i feel another sore throat coming up again! *wails* i just got back my voice!! don't wanna lose it again!! *sobz*

i have yet to drink till i'm really high or drunk. i want to pass out now. like knock out. then these thoughts wouldn't run through my head. it's haunting me. even in my dreams. why can't i get drunk? how come i can hold my alcohol so well? but then again, when a gal is drunk, it's very unsightly. so i'm glad i can hold my alcohol well. least i know i will be safe and it's going to take alot to even get me high. *grin*

would i be crazy to start studying now? shouldn't be right? after all, i'm a student. studying is what i'm supposed to be doing. not messing around. but why does studying feels weird, while messing around is almost second nature to me? *naughty grin* yeah i'm naughty. way too naughty at times.. i know. heh but that's what makes life fun! to walk within the lines would make my life so boring! *grin*